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2005-04-08T21:12:00.000-07:00

hellos.
the world goes round
yet another passes
here i am typing away
all these words typed out
some of which makes no sense at all
but who cares?
now that you're gone.
i won't give a damn anymore.
thinking back.
i should not give the helping hand at all
i was wrong.soo wrong
i should have let you walk on ur own
knowing that you have no strength left
i should have jus let go
even though i knew u can't hold on.
but i did nothing of that
i held on
i had hopes
i had dreams
life is full of miracles
i keep telling myself this
i can't give up
i needa go on`
go on~
but in the end
it was you hu left me
know its me hu can't get up
can't breathe
can't think.
you left me here.
alone now~
i hate you!
but i know hating would get me to nowhere
with all my heart i'm sorry
i can't make u stay
i'm sorry i can't let you see
i'm sorry i you can't see what i did
so with all my heart
i forgive you~

* sumtyms ppl you helped and acred can't see the kindness you gave 'em -

but no matter how u hate or dislike that particular someone.we should all try to forgive and try hard to forget even though forgetting is sumtink very difficult to do`

memories.sumtyms.jus.makes.u.emotional~~

2005-04-01T19:15:00.000-08:00

i feel such a connection even thou you'resoo far away~

hellos =) dear diary` i jus woke up.feelin quite weird and i dunno why! hmm sms-in yifang chattin wif ang online listenin to alicia keys.which cd i've not gif bak to cass. double sorry to her~
hmms. okays~ wat is there to blog? i've got nth ~ no mood! my mum have a hard time smsin.soo pathetic.dots!!! so okays last nite i could not log int o msn.ass! humf` sheesh! yeah i've got one more thing to complain.guides!! sobs.. so mani thingys to do.jess head so heavy! and she's under stress.hmms` sooooo mani things to plan for da steppin down sia~ gawds! helmme.and there's my studies! wtf! why mus schu be ike dis.exams exams exams.. ass all da examinations.stippit la! okays end it here.really pissed jus mentionin the word exams.cya~

2005-03-26T07:07:00.000-08:00

finally a day with ESHLYN `

hellos people~ omg` i finalli met up wif bestie fren eshlyn lim xing jie. hey see! i can remember ur name too apart from xavier. lols. yays for carmella.of cos la rite~ i BETTER remember if not u hack me to pieces yeah? hees. okays anyway today " date" was kinda last minute thingy. My mum told me to clean my room and was allowed to go.aww~ hehes. Eshlyn has gr0wn prettier >.< mwahahas. am i liek suan-ing you? who knows? whoops =x kk` we watched ms congeniality 2 today!!!!!!! that show was friggin coool and rawkin sia. never regretted spending my precious 8.50 on da tickets.hehes. was funny too. sandra bullock looks like ethelyn!!! eshlyn's sis. they all got da ang moh pattern.lucky la.hahas~ the way sandra bullock walks too reminded me of ethelyn. hehes. =) kk we shopped too and ate ! =p heees` umms my 50 bucks was gone in an like 2 hours time =x big spender rites? haiis.wat to do?! wan pamper myself. hahahas~ sound so pathetic. aiyohs carmella~ tomolo's easter sunday! happy easter sunday to you guys.hugs and kisses =p hmm k later i shall list what i spend my money on. soo grrrs. kk choo yeow jus called me go see elix taggi board. sumtink baaad must have happen. sorry for the interruption.gotta end it here. k i shall list what i bought~

the girl spended on.
* bum collar tees - 20.80 bucks
* food - bout 12 bucks?
* tickets 8.50`
* ear studs - 5 bucks
* mag - 3 bucks

resulting me in no money to buy my cds!!!! growls!!! =(

2005-03-25T07:57:00.000-08:00

the` EYE 10 ~!! bo0!

hihi =p ... hehes preety lame title yaa i know.jus shuttupp wif ur comments kay?! hahas =x whoops!

hmm went to watch the eye 10 today wif a couple of secondary schu buddies >.< thou =")" creepy ="x" hehes ="x" hearts ="D" popcorns =")">.< hanki =")" steady ="D" hehes ="x" guys ="p" you ="p" fwensforever =")">

*carmella finally watched a horror film wif her buddies >.< -
250305~ weeeee!

2005-03-24T08:52:00.000-08:00

jus freak out let it go`

hellos people!

firstly~ i wanna scream this : i did not finish my standerdise test!!!! sumone up there save me =) please.

okays` hmm todae eh? well woke up damn friggin early.was yawnin like mad =p for the sake of my lil sister! what a great sister i am to scarifice my sleep time for her =) better be appreciative cassandra teigh! lols. anyways reached mac ritchie where my dad drop my sis off she was had her cross country todae and was expected to be there at 6.45 . oh well she was early` 6.35 exactly.hahas.we saw no souls at mac ritchie.duh its six in da mornin.hello! hahas. then suddenly saw a girl standing there.a pathetic soul.waiting i guess? hmm as we go further up faces appaered . people bustling around~ guess was the counsellors preparing for the run.Drop sis off.it was preety dark` there spoooky and also scary too cos there was a rape incident happen there~ who0ps`! then proceed to my school! was kinda early.Earlier than usual. -.-'' dots is all i say. Dad dropped me off at zebra crossin there where yang sheng was handling the traffic.hees =) okays~ then i crossed the road reached sch. damn locker area was light-less!! i can't see the locker no. properly !arses! there was caning today.sigh another one~ i'm beggining to get used to it.why can't they jus obey.grrs.hmm hais life was same old thing.study study scold scold.SAME! mdm goh flared up today.sent daryl out of da class. hais` she told us we were'nt clever.no one in this school is. those hu scores high marks is due to hardwork! one big fat word to her oh plus 3 words behind. WADEVER. kiss my ass~! hmf` was over there giving the stupid face to her! rollin my eyes.un-noticed =) teachers~ sumtyms are such nags! eews! i jus wanna punch 'em all down rid 'em all. =x guess i can't ,its just beyond me.useless me. well did not finish stand test today.scared. i'm feelin down cos of this. =( grrs. sumtyms when i daydream or my mind jus go blank ... i'd fill my mind wif questions.floodin it with lotsa why?! why me?! why am i here? hmm these questions.... then i reflect back and asked myself do i sound self-centered?! when i told my parents once that i took a test and it showed tt i was self-centered sadly they agreed.Their answer to me was even... u finally realised it! it shocked me~ why did no one mention it earlier on?! i was a fool ain't i?! i smiled at 'em those kindaf half smile.and said really? when my heart was actually breaking inside.blood triklin down slowly and endlessly.that was how i felt.miserable.hmm maybe also cos of other stuffs.The pain was slow and it pricked me hard.sighs`i feel so confuessed sumtimes. i just can't tell which are lies and which are truths. feel useless.well i am ~ hahas.to think i still can laugh.argh wadever carmella.smile! =) okays. we must be happy . those hu are having a bad day ... jus wanna say think positive out there ... sumwhere someone's thinking of ya ~ remember this and kip ur soul alive =) dream on. kk i'll end this here. mwacks~ hugs + kisses nites` the cup is half full =p not half empty yeahs?! lets do this together walk the rocky road of life together with a undying spirit.we can do it.

= only love can say
= try again or walk away
=but i believe for you and me
= that the sun will shine one day
= iso i jus play my part
= pray that you'll have a change of heart
= but i can`t make you see it thru
= tts onli sumtink love can do`

nice song yeah?!?! mwaccks~ love? hah! tell-me the true meaning =)

2005-03-17T20:15:00.000-08:00

way away~~*

hellos.feeling sick! the feeling totally sucks. i can't breathe properly.i cant taste properly. this is a major problem for a girl who loves to eat .. i can't taste my favorite food properly n0w. suckie eh? yaaa.. i can hear properly too. so pardon me askin HUH. okays? hehes at least now i've got an excuse when my dad calls me 2 or 3 times and me not ans him.kk evil me. yesterday? well its alite. woke up in da morning.... went to compass to eat cos` sis meeting fwens at liabary. yarr then me? well i went to sheena's house. i was the FIRST. cheers! okays... so then i played wif her hamster tiny. so cute~ hahas. girls~ hmm waited for jurene.ruoping and jessebelle. hours flew by and finally jurene came. then hours flew by again ruoping and jess appeared. hahas! then we started doin the badge thingy. accident prevention. hahas~ kk then we half watch tvee half do our thing. hmm. in teh end we completed the points but have not drawn those pics and too bad i've gotta go. after that` i went to funeral. don't wish to talk bout hu`s funeral laa. stayed till 12 ++ then went home. and boom once i'm home~ i changed. make me bed. and went under the covers and start to snore... waiting for the next day to come. and here i am~ hees`

2005-03-15T22:04:00.000-08:00

s ii c k l ii e - M ee * my week is -H.o.r.R.i.b.L.e-

hello.people.sorry for the wait yarr >.<

life is a mess now. i feel awful.

throat is pain.head feels heavy eyeballs dry ... everything seemed to be spinning

yeah... but i still can TYPE gawwd... holidays equals broing!

haas! k anyways. was browsin frensterr ~

i linked from here to there and saw alot of girl picture.whoa some uploaded 11 pics and the pics included nothing other than their face.

gosh i wonder what they wanna prove man~ guess they're afraid they aren't preety enuff for the world ehh?

i missed a-math lesson todae part of me HAPPY cos i get to skip the boredom.ohh save me. and anotha part of me feel awfuul cos of the sickness.growls~

stupid weather ; stupid everything!!

i'm listening to purfect 10 now feeling pathetiic. dotss...

hahas~ traalalalala. i'm so0n gonna get my butt out of this chair and fetch mua lil sis.

my lil sis went to ask for donations today wonderr how did it went.lols.can't wait to hear her stories. =p blehhs.

oh yaa i bought yellow card cd.woo0o0o0o0o0o0ts~!!

cds wiishliist`
1) ashlee simpsons autobiography
2) good charlotte the young and the hopeless
3) linsay's speak! *
4) eminen encore~ *
5) jojo [ hmm still consideriing`]
6) usher~

the one wif * is i wann alott~ hahas. =)

k i shall end here. i'll be right here waiting for youu`

i'm.a.girl.without.powerrs`
but.i.do.have.dreams`
and.one.of.'em.is...
to.see.your.smile.again~
i.miss.you.soo.muuch~

2005-03-10T01:45:00.000-08:00

march tenth.kaiting`s burfdae =)

hellos.
what a tiiring day.I woke up late. growls.actually its our fault.me and sis.
hehes. school was boring kept laughing with cherie today.hahas!
called shuchen ah-dey~ dun even noe wat's that.
chinese teacher was on leave.i was delighted and tot of resting but ended up learnin geog.
lols.but i still think i'd flunk my geog test.grrs.
then during chem it was again mdm goh there rattling about henry goh bout himshifting here and there and kept dosing off.hahas.wadever.
mdm goh really needs a fashion lesson!
hais. then pe! i was trying to throw the ball into the basketball hoop.tried to play soccer but the ball kept running away.hahas. maybe cos i'm smelly?hahas!
sec 1 bonding chem was today.the win lor!
the erst was preety boring!
then my papa came.collected my rseults.
i failed 2 frikkin subjects!
a math plus chemiistry! wad the fark.
k laa needa work hard!!
cyaa .end here.sleeepy! do not giff upp =)

100305` kaiting happy burrfday.hugs plus kisses.hehes. >.<

2005-03-09T05:37:00.000-08:00

sporrts day~

hellos people.here finally.yahh i'm always usiin the word finally.hahas.i'm lazy ok! erms sports day was today.i'm frikkin tired.my muscles are all practically aching.groans.school wasn't much fun today...anyway ever when was school fun?? hmm maybe when i'm in kindergarten being a innocent child hu still havent seen the REAl WORLD yet.that was the only time school was fun.hahas.stupid subjects stupid teachers and stupid results.everything's frikkin messed up lately.my a math sucked big big time.i got a twenty.a farkiin 20!!! maybe its me? hais dunchnoe and dont wanna spend time brooding over it.done tt alot lately.hahas.okay...watever! was happy to recieve a call from my old pal.she was so excited ... over the phone.we talked being lamers and sometimes missing out what each other had said. and had to ask huh what did you say.tts us! umms then sports day ruoping and sheena was dreading to go cos they had to do guides duty and they heard tt it was preety tough.rumor said that they have to stand there for the whole day in attention.So after schu they rushed around finding people to replace em.they were frantic.sheena was sick so was ruoping so they wont be able to hold out too long in da hot sun.hahas.lucky for ruoping she found xiaomin.hehes.we went to the stadium by cab.got there round 12 ++ ran to the toilet and jessebelle changed.soon after, the race started first by the 100 m c div. girls.the second race was badd.sini fell down.sadd.hopes she's okay.kaly helped her up.great fren.hahas.okays then i ran for 200. was second and hmm 4 by 100 won nothing.after sports day went to tamp. stadium wif ping.sheena.jess and ming xuan.halfway there... we saw liwei wif vicknesh and strafford.we were like.... censored.hahas.okay laa... got there.ming xuan bought a pair of socks and yahh me and jess proceed to our dinner and said our goodbyes to ping,na and ming xuan at century sq. saw yan jing,jiale they were hilarious esp at the food court! hmm details ? i'm tired.yawns.ok laa then dad fetch me and jess home.and i'm here typin away.okays.tts it.lazy mee.cya~ got a geog cum ss test tml! one word ... fark! tata.dream people!

2005-03-05T08:20:00.000-08:00

cheryl's burfdaee__*

hellos` whoass~ was tokin to dan online when i asked whther his mama came home... he did nt reply and suddenly sms me say tt his mama was home.frikkishh` yeah totally.lols came back from cheryl's party.omg` so funn.haha ray's a lil drunk.aiyohs.jervis saddist and the gals i jus tokkkked alottt~ hehes.hais.funny moments.it first started off when i meet elix and jiayun and zen at kovan mrt then we saw ms koh.okay~ lols wif her guy.and then went to take neoprints.hmm tmeet up wif fand and deniese together wif yang sheng and richard.hahas.then they took foto.so funny sia.laughing like maad.okay tehn went to cheryl's house saw met up wif raymond.choo yeow.roger.hahas.okay tehn later went there by 83 yups then the guys took 86.hahas.talked over there.ate.played.run about.shouted.see stars.woots.hadd funn!!!~ hmm shud have this once in a while... haiis.k laa dun wish to tok bout it rather tired yawns.shud i go trainin.siighs.dunno where~!

man` darrn farniii =D laughin me heads off.wakakas`
o5 o3 2oo5 \\ *
anybody hu's down??~
jus wanna tell you that i love you =)
BE HAPPY yeah~

2005-03-02T06:20:00.000-08:00

heats day`

oh hellos.hahas.finally touchiin my blog.My excuse? i was busy too busy to blog.hahas.umm i ate at swensens yesterday, was my didi b-day and elix mama b-day.hahas.what a coincidence eh.anyway life sucks.k here i go again rattlin on how life is such a misery to me and how it sucks the reason the xplanation to all these fark up feelings.negatiivity` wadever.my math is a totall screw up thing.especially a math.grrs.i failed patheticalli for the test i think i got a three` haha same as cassie.hehes.wachiin ameriicann i doll now when i'm suppose to be concentratiin on my math.i hate this word math.i hate myself for makin all those stupid uneccesarry careless mistake.got a so called scoldiin from ms koh about how careless i was.bla bla.stupid me.hais.i toldher cos the air con there was tooo cold tt it made me loose my concentration which ass would believe tt.Hey`i ain't a good story teller.lemme see.. oh btw guys i bought a new bag.hahas.sighs.i've got lots to say.how i wish i was given my very own ocean where i could vent all my negativity there.just scream my sadness my fryustrations my anger my fear my emotinal part all outt and away never to be heard or seen or be felt ever again.i dun wish to get hurt. hu would? hahas.i was talkin to cass just the other day bout we always giving in and dunno how to talk back.grrs.tts just us! we ain't ppl hu fights back.hmm... i mean what would the world be if no ne tries to give way?! so i'd rather jus absorp all the anger and bottle everything inside me and jus tolerate.hais.silly olld me.hmm okays.The HEATS sucked today.i ran till my darn muscale are screamin for help up to now screamin for me to realesa them from great aches and pain.ohh how i wish i coukd do something.how i wish i had an osim chair at home.hahas.oooooh.me in my dreamland.always flying there.hmms.well tts bout my lfe la.blog next tym.mwacks taas`

2005-02-23T03:48:00.000-08:00

siian-*

hihi.here lers.umm schu todae lor had ger guide day.preety exciiting and nerrvouss! lols.but we did well.yay for guidess!! we must stand unitted =] no matter wad.okayys.. so neway... schu was boring went to schu in house shirt then jess forget where.hais.k laa.. then physics test copiee here and there frm zen.hehes.naughty.err then later mrs chua had bad temper scolded us.for untidy hand rittin copiers and umm common phrases !! wadever.life suks.feeling down todae.shuttupp laa.hais. then liddats.. teh ruth tan the a math lesson call me go up rite ans again.sian man! okayy then laterr ~ the notes tehre got rite sets then names... john aravin and george.elix take john... tall strong and hansome give aravin to jiayun oso posses saem qualities then i take george lorhh hu is not strong =( so sad.but nvm la.hahas.ojkay tehn later after schu went canteen eat saw junli go tok tok... then later cor me pei her.i got lorh then treat her drink!!! then stil take bk for her.aiyah owe her marh =) kk then tok tok..hehes ~ then arif steal; elix away go ask her type sian man... then later proceeded to jiayun house lorh.. then gamble there.wif cheryl.jiayun.elix.qiulin.cassandra.kangqi.moii.hais themn went hm wif cass.tts my life!! cya!! mwacks!! i hate chem test =( buaiss~

2005-02-10T02:46:00.000-08:00

finally here~

hihi!! peeps.miss me?? lols wadever la.i'm finalee here.i finale got to touch my blog.ohhh all that waiting.went to lincoln's house but eshlyn used the net most of da time.hais pity her 2 yrs since her net cut =( cheer up.hehes.suppose to go to daniel's house todae and gamble but i could not contact cass.i called her las nite at like umm 11 + hahas.i know its rather late.read her blog and found out she spent her new year bored and wif a book.tts cass.you would always find her wif a book and ohh no dun u think she's those nerdish gals hu reads reads reads she's one cool funky fresh type.lols!! wat the hell i'm crappin again.hmm i dun even noe wat to blog.chinese new year was ok la.umm recieve thirteen ang bao frm las visit and still counting.*heh-heh* err bought the jay chou ahh!!! lols.schu sucked man.the chinese new year concert was such an ass.the mic system sucked big time.my principle can't even talk loud and we sec 3 have to attend public speakin course wtf?!?! ohh the fun part was oni when zaidi put on the lion costume and started dancing when he has no parctice at all.poor hi kiong was behind him doin the lion's butt.man after the "dance" zaidi was panting like shit!! we had a great laugh.zaidi aint tt bad i duno why sum peeeps hate him so much? hais~ went back to rosyth saw my pri schu frens.some has changed and some still e same.hahas.raphael talked alot ... lols and whoa he's one rich man son.10 bucks ... cheap??!!?! isn't tt nuts? lols.saw mdm dalilah her ex students complain we hogged her for such a long tym and it wasnt us it was raphael.gawd.lols.then saw martin.man!! he's changed aite! hais why smoke? tsk tsk.k la i shan't go on.i'd sure to flunk a-math test.hurrays.watever!! umm yar! valentine's day comin and my class played secret pal aka angel and mortal i gotta gurl.*grins* hahas.umm gonna revealed it next mon.heh-heh.wonder hu has me?!?!? hope its good.guys better buy sumtink for ur gals arh! be a gentleman.hmm for singles dun worry la treat it as appreciation day.hehes.k la takkare peopor.mwacks!!

SoMeTiMeS~
We
MuSt
KnOw
WeNt
To
LeTt
Go
AnD
MoVe
Onn~

happy new year!!!!!!!~ =D

2005-01-30T05:50:00.000-08:00

give it up.

hellos.i'm here.i dun wanna do my homework.its ll crap to me.i miss my primary school life.i hate my secondary sch life.shutup la people.you think you no me but you don't.ahh dun listen to me i'm jus venting my anger.haha!! i feel so stupid.my a-math is like hell to me.Whenever i start on a question i'd go completely blank.why do i have to be in the best class? best? i dun think so.hmm i jus read cass's blog.her entries really make sense.why can't ppl let me be.just let me be.keep all those stupid comments to yourself.posers? whoa there's many of them in my sch.dun wanna mention names and some of which i dun even noe their names.Sumtyms i hate being a girl.there's like so many emotions and things going through ur brain at a same time.i wanna shut it out but i can't.running away dosen't help.wadever wadever.everything is like a mess.big blardi mess.i duno wad's up wif me these days.haisss.i oso dunno why am i typing away here.why must we study? jane brokedwn durin guides tt day cos of her compo.give her a break.jane cheer up!!why mus negatives thoughts and things exist in this world?why can't it me worry-free? its sooo unfair.some ppl gets the credit for things tt they've nt laid thei fingers on.freaks.tts wat i call em.why must life be soo miserable huh?! haiss.mrs tan went fast on explainin math again.she love draggin the lessons esp on fri.i wanna change class.i feel so lost sometimes.a math's really a headache.there's other things t worry about.In fact i've got lots to worry.frenship.family.studies.wadever wadever.money issues.etc gawd i'm like drownin in these series of problems.cheerful me? where have i gone to.dun leave me bitter and miserable.i wanna be happy.i hate being emotional but sometimes i really can't help it.changes? why can't ppl stay the same.sigh.dad seem preety moody today.i dare'nt ask him math question.he oredred me to go wash the dishes todae.my bro's another headache!!! this rat! you noe what he did? he scooped the apple sauce frm the apple pie and put it in his mouth.he found tt the sauce was cold and he spit it bak to the plate!! EEWS.be civilised would ya?!??! what's more my sis and i was like gonna eat it.hello?!?!?!? omg.no comments.i hope sch would be fun tml and nt add to this depressive me.this miserable me.change all these feelings pleasse.i beg you.lols hu am i even tokin to??ahh carmella... hold onn~ cyaa.people hope ur livin a better life ... smiles`

2005-01-29T01:04:00.000-08:00

//* haisssss~

hellos.here updatin.not as usual.kinda moody now.think i slept alot.arghs.duno wat to blog.ohh k lemme try.yesterday had guides.sec 2 and 3 all footdrill.then exco and some ps play games wif sec 1.sigh.i dunno what's goin on right now.yeah as like what cass said everyone got a problem wif everyone else.this sucks.why can't we live in peace arh? haisss .... schu is as usual boring plus tired.give my brain a break will ya~ ass la.haha we played truancy and not go for chinese class.hahas drag the health check up fir 2 hours.woohoo!! 3k rawks.lols.evil bunch.we satt there tok cok.ghost stories.Qiulin told us what the band experience those things in our sch.hahas.we were all so tuned in.listenin.then elix told us bout the movie.then shuchen and i were like strainin our ears can't hear.=x whoops.hahas.then shuchen told me and bahui plus wenyan her "stories" too.hehes.had fun~ kk then liddats.it was recess qiulin a great fren man.iwanna give her a big big hug and kiss.lols she sacrificed her recess time jus to accompany me go take my geog test.omg~ touched.hahas.then... a math was boring.she dragged the whole thing as usual.wadever la.haissss.tts life.okay then lidat lidat lidat.then went to ger guide.plan my game at teh very las minute wif da help of oluvia.hehes.aiyahs.wah all cca trainin sehs.hahas had the sec 1 here for orientation in our cca.everything's so complicated lorhs.arghs.okays then liddat.was jess burfade.my senior bought cake for her.she was soo touched until she cried.haha happy burfdae gal.Went home and saw kahmilah,amirah and arif.Arif like so daoleis.lols.then amirah like so high.and kahmilah was as usual sweet.hahas.amirah was like soo top of the world ytd.weirrd.hehes.Went home.logged in.chat wif lix.ohh yarr i made the grp which came to me durin guides while we're playin this game to shout " elix i love u " to elix lee while she went home.okok on msn played this idiotic prank on cass.hehes.I sound so unconvincin felt kinda weird la.then in teh end reveal teh truth to cass.hahas.she so funny.then nxt we played on cheryl.haisss.bunch of lamers hu had nth better to do.but it was fun.=x k la then chatted wif cass for ooo long.then i log out and poof went to sleep.kk tts my life... till next time.bye!!

2005-01-22T08:58:00.000-08:00

denise burffdae __*

hii.lols.todae's denise burfdae.nv really did go out celeb wif her th0uu.hehes.hais.i feel so mixed upp.can sumone pls point me the right direction.i'm lost in my world despite being here for like almost fifteen years.i really miss being a child.N0 worries.no headaches.no STRESS.its as if a child's life is based on happiness.laughter!! the type every teenage gurl craves for... a world of endless happiness... where the word sad is unknown where anger and hatred dosen't exist.where people dosent care bout looks.they jus live being HAPPY.a smile each day and everyday.let laugh ... time ?? it would be impossible to turn back time.lets face it i'm stuck here in this world,being 14 going on to 15.i can't run away i can't hide.watever it is i still must face the future.to go thru it.i really wonder wat the future has installed for me?? will i become a singer? an actress? a looser? a freak? wat? ahh ... as the saying goes curiosity kills the cat.. hmm is this right?! hahas.wadever carmella.hehe talked to esh online jus n0w.i missed her so much.=( hais eshlyn arh i've got lots to spill to you.homework's pillin up every week.more more and more.i'm afraid... i can`t cope.sighs.everything ain't good.at home or at schu.life's miserable.i wanna pour it all out but there'll always be consequenses.you may not understand wat i'm typing but i dun really give a damn.what g0es arounnd comes around right?!?! arghs.. i dunoe .. if this is right at all?!?!? wat the hell~!! i feel siick.wat i wanna do right at this moment is... to grow wings and jus fly out of my window~ free myself frm everything.i feel as if i'm stuck in a room or lets say locked up in this stinking little tiny room for years and i've been the key for as long as the sun came to be.i jus wanna be free.wanan feel the sunshine and rain on my skin.i wanna scream i wanna laugh i wanna live jus being ME.do wishes come true?! i guess not i've been wishing alot and none of 'em come true.hais guess i feel like this due to tupid pms.my mum nagged at me jus now and i felt so irritated and was like chantting shutup shutup shutup.when my brother asked me a question i flared up.wat the hell is wrong!??! why mus girls go thru this pms stage.ass la.i hate it.i'm sorrie.i knew what i did was wrong.i'm so sorry.it hurts me as much as it hurts y0u.sorrie for my outburst.s0rries~ ahha k la takker peeps~!

2005-01-20T05:23:00.000-08:00

i jus wanna live.... dun really care... i jus wanna live ~!!

hihi~ hahas.dun care??!?! well tts a LIE.hahas.i guess being a girl u jus care bout everything~!! even th0se itsy bitsy lil things get onto our nerves sometimes weird eh~? wadever.tt's girls for you and we rawk always.hehes.hais well todae? was okay larh. jessebelle's drama group went to act on stage durin mornin assembly todae.poor jess she needed to kneel cos she was a dwarf.sighs.newya great acting guys.bravo!!! hahas.hehe yeahh! jesse mcCartney beautiful s0ull on radio.wooho0s!!~ k so after mornin assembly... went to chinese class.well rather bored cos we only like read newspaper lorhs.wadever.shyt i'm havin fluu~! arghhs.the feelin sucks.afetr that was chem.well me and cheryl was conmplainin frm start to end.we were like reciting jervis's msn nick.aunty goh.XL ttn and naggy ah lim.wahahas.woots!! yeah then chem was amahish goh again lorhs.pe was sway being called out to lead in excercise but cher leaded in the end.wahahas.luckie wors.then umm... played games accidentally hit cherie.ouch!! s0rrie.mwacks!! lols.then english went to liabary to hab lessons again sian.nth exciting thou jus learned the diff type of compo.oh yeah i voted arif as head of councill!! ariff~! lols jiayou!! hmms... then erms liddat lorh ... umm assembly was bout tsunami disaster.sighs devastating man!! scarries.so umm after tt i tot hab guides meetin.then went there but see all exco no jess.se ask liwei mus come nots..then go find jess... cnnt find... then saw her in ruth tan hm room havin a math then i oso wanna ask ques lorhs.so go there.tehn jess finish ler atch street soccer then me pei qiuqiu find ruth tan pei cindy fing ah-chua.then find find cnnt find.so then saw cheryl and joey then go watch street soccer... then hamidah came along then later cheryl and joey wan buy drinks.we follow lorhs.then saw elix!!! wah happie like shit.hehes then oso saw kahzhua.cassie.hehes.then we sat there watch lorhs.teh atmosphere was from like excitiing to more dull and boriing.hehes whoops.but all did well la jiayouus.hmm wahh didn;t noe the yangsheng could dribble so well.whoas.greaat jobb wors!! lols hais i havin stress leis.wahlao headaches.tehn went hm wif kahzhua.yanshan.elix and shuchen!! haha lub ya guys! kk till here.takkare dudes plus dudettes!!~

2005-01-16T05:17:00.000-08:00

borring sundaee ____*

i'm tired of rumours.
i'm sick of being followed.
i duncare what they sae about me....
why can't they jus let me live?!
i'm tired of movie starring

hellos.i'm here again.haha on top are part of lindsay lohan rumours lyrics.. they're not in order so mind me.hahas.Sigh i jus finished my chinese newspaper reflection thingy.my brain's on fire.I did a-math till i cried.i woke up damn funny todae... i was laying on my bed facing the window when i saw something fly through it and headed towards me or so i thought... then acting fast i jump out scartching my right eye plus screaming an ahhh.shocked my innocent mum who was crossing my bedroom goin to the balcony.i told her ... bee... big bee.lols sounded like a two year old kid.sighh.then rushed to my mum's room and lay down there ... told my lil bro tt i was stung by the bee and showed him the cut i made on my right eye.he believe me and told the entire household.tsk tsk.cute and innocent.bwahahs.my sister also believe me.my gosh.i kept mum.My dad also notice the cut and asked me what happen i told him the bee lanedd there and might have stung me.lols.and he believe me!!! whahahas! evil me.then we went to serangoon area there to have our breakfast.my bro ate porkchop for his breakfast ..weird guy...hahas.Me and sis ate roti prata waited dam long for our plates of roti prata and the order was wrong when served to us.GrR... but we gobbled up everything.hahas.Then i told the truth about my cut.hehes.whoops.okies then went home did homework.whoa our house was like a pig sty.Mess everywhere.created my none other than ME.SIS and BRO.muahahahs.A math was balrdi difficult.shyt lar.yeah like eshlyn said jus started the year and feel like ending it already.dotss.wth !!! carmella perservere !!! i can do it.THINK POSITIVE! hais i found out i did the sums for e math test were all wrong.feel like killin myself.argghh.life sucks!!Umms.what else happen??! my dad and mum are wachin football now.s'pore versus indo. Hmm s'pore so far scored 2 and indo 1.ohh yeah~ my aunts and grandaunt came todae.They were so cute.MAinly to visit my ah-mah.And yeah u noe how its like when relatives come.They comment on you.Ur height,looks,age..wadever there is.The same stuff.hehes.then when we send them off we saw our neigbour they were dress in red ,whole family!!! they were gonna watch the match.They went there to support s'pore hahas.jiayouu wors.. singapore!!! hahas. errs i guess this is it?? nth more to blog.stay kewl ppl.idun feel like goin schu.blardi stress!!!~

2005-01-15T02:38:00.000-08:00

welc0me.t0.my.life ____*

you donno what its like...
to be hurt.
to feel lost.
to be left out in the dark.
to be kicked when you're down.
to feel like you've been push around
to be on the edge of breaking down.
and no one`s there to save you....
with the big fake smiles and stupid lies.
no you donno what its like to be like ME.
no one ever stabs you in the back
everybody always get you wat you wanted.
No you donno what its like~

hellos.back here.Went to guides headquarters jus now to submit the banner we did.hope it's the best there is.lols.sigh.life sucks.i love the lyrics to simple plan welcome to my life.it makes so much sense somtimes and sometimes it feels as if the whole world's gonna end and that you want attention.weird how songs could play a part in your everyday life.i dono bout you all..but for me i lurve listenin to songs when i'm bored esp songs which matches my feelings.you might find it rather weird and strange.lets say.. if i feel down i lurve to hear songs which is depressing.like avril lavigne's nobody home.my blog song.grins.it kinda makes me feel better.hahas.funny me.Anyway wat are your kinds of songs? I hate techno.okay dun sae hate .. i can't appreciate techno songs.its damn fast and pumpy plus i cant hear the lyrics or even there's no lyrics its just beats ... i guess its for dancing.lols.weird why did i add in that staement.frankly.. i've got nothing to write.hmm nothing un-personal.lols.Sometimes i sit on my bed or lie watever .. and would think of stuffs or reflect on myself.sighh.why is life unfair?!?!? others got the credit for teh things you've done? why life like this?! i want to meet god.i'd ask a million question.hey! why am i typing all these? hmm but really my life is jus ordinary.Just liek urs.Nothing special bout it.all those usual stuff.boring stuffs.today's qiulin burfdae . i saw her in schu jus now and wsihed her.she seem happy.lucky girl.we were late todae.whoops.lols.sorry.they said i was going shopping cos i carried a handbag.dotss... why can't i carry a handbag... hello..its a bag too and it stores thing.sigh.we went to headquarters.me jiahwei jess and peilin.well unlucky us ...we took a one and half hour bus journey to the headquarters and when we got there the office was close.okay it was kinda my fault too.hehes.So then we passed it to the aunty mending the shop instead.Peilin was rushing to meet her dear and it was not her day.boos to being a girl.hmm... then later jess want to buy dinner for later and she went to the mini pasar malam with jiahwei.While me and peilin went to the loo.wow J8 was one messed-up shopping centre.It was crowded the design was so complicated.the toilet was like a maze.imagine people!! people were walkin in and out.one turn and you could loose a fren.people in pairs,groups,alone.tall short thin fat.all was present.my gosh.after relieving ourselves we went to meet jiahwei and jess at the opp bustop from where we alighted upon goin to teh headquarters.it was one HOT freakin day.i sweated liek a pig and kept drinkin the pink dolphin i bought.hehe peilin wanted to go to her dera place.we search for a bus which ould bring her there and in the end we took 55 while jess and jiahwei took 156.me and peilin alighted at bown schu there and took 165 we missed the 147 cos i talked too much.sorry.guilts! i duno why lei but i cnnt stand when the surrounding become quiet.it makes me feel as if we're strangers.then i took the 165 until her dear place in case she dosent know where to stop.lols. in the end i think i made her walk i alil bit.when her dear hse in jus infront of us!!! whoops.here goes stupid carmella.lols.hmm fetch her till there and took a bus home.hahas.i feel as if i so free siah but i didn't want to go home leis.boring.arhh!! jesse mc cartney beautiful's playin on radio.SCREAMS!! nice song.peeps go hear one perfect song for people in lurve.lols.but not me la.tts my day.kk goodbye ppl.mwacks~!

2005-01-13T04:35:00.000-08:00

mixed up inside ~

*cos the race is all about believin in urself___
i dream` i can be the her0 tts in me .. i dream....
i can run like the wind and be strong when my herat just wanna give in~
i dream . i dream . i dream . >.<

hellos.bakies.hmm where shall i start.the usual thrusday.you know the school stuffs and all.Assembly was borinnng it was bout the oyea award.dots.hmm we've not done eng compo yet wonder wads gonna happen? hmm lols.heck la.k then anyways... after schu went to compass with elix and olivia lorhs.haiyoh before that we went to eat at canteen.lols!! we sat at a "sway" table man! gosh.the jervis was jus opposite lorhs.his eyes open damn big it feels its gonna pop out anytime.he looked so pervertic and those kind of pshycho maniac.sorry la jervis but relly lorh u stare until so scary siah.hahas.whoops.okies,so the rep thingy talk was on fri.hais tml gotta stay back.i feel tt its so lame lorh.why is there a breifin ??? its like common sense? lols.aiyohs.i feel so mixed up inside nowadaes.oh well.sat ish qiulin burfday.happy burfdae to her.hmm... k chem lesson was anotha irritatin lesson.i cant stand mdm goh.she's so amah-ish.my goodness.okies relaks.calm down.wah then cixiang todae spill the alchohol.lols luckie she nv see.not he die arh she nag nag.lols.hmm hor cixiang arh.then pe went to run.arghs i hate runnin lorhs.i mus well go spa and slim down.why dun the sch provide this kinda service?send the gurls to spa and guys to gym.lols.ahahah then todae have chi hw.compo sian arh.wah pianks.then hmm okies went to compasspoint lorh.bought elix father persent.take lrt saw richard.elix's bluff sister.hahas.he like so scared of her.walk so fast.tsk.wel we walk round cp in search of elix's special papa present.in the end bought a shirt.nice shirt.lols.hmm well this is most of it.hais.sian arh.. why am i even bloggin.bored? i guess.aiyahs

i feel like spilling everything out
but then again i'm scared
afraid? why?
i dunno
i'm confuse.i need help
bloggin here is like plubishing to the whole world
i've got no privacy and typing's much easier then rittin
i hate rittin in my diary
i'm un-talented... i know.

okay peeps.i'll end it here.cya.sweet dreams.takkare.bye!!

2005-01-12T06:04:00.000-08:00

recruitment dayy`~!

hellos.i'm back here.hmm dunchnoe hwy i suddenly thought of eshlyn.its been such a long long time we've not met.does she still consider me as her best fren? or worst she've forgotten me? cannot be la.thinking too much here.lols.but yeah its really a lonnng time.pretty sad.hmm todae was recruitment day and bb day.Urms we started the mornin with the Bb marchiin in.hmm smartly attired.good job.yay!! clap hands.hehes.Hmm todae mr zaidi pulled up kelvin pants until dam high.i feel that he should'nt have done that.not that he did it for one time it was three!!!kelvin sway la.then... went back to vlass.first period ms koh.sighh.sat with rheyme.paiseh dunchnoe hw to spell.hais we took such a long time to settle down siah.Ms koh wanted us to be in gurl boi gurl boi seats.oh well.... she wants us to pay attention.aiyahs elix seated with arif lor.happy la! lols.she's forever praisin him.man!! k then later ish physics wah piank ttn dun allow us go toilet durin practical siah.i wet his floor then he know arh!! well if he's bladder is good doesn't mean our is.yeah?!?!? oh pls.haiss` then all those usual stuff.. study study.hmm k then one more thing to type ish eng class shaul did not come then went to play truth or dare lame siah.dared elix to stroke arif's head.aiyohs she hor?!?! so funni.k la then a. math was preety boring.and so ish the other lessons.chat chat wif elix lor.qiulin oso.many craps siah.hais elix oways hab juciy thing to sae de la.another gurl hu's nv out of words.then when she nv tok she relli luk v. fierce lei i scared.

k then after schu.tym for recruitment.haiis i wa sin charge of flyers.omg.hard persuading man.saw manii frens.elix kang qi wunyen regina shuchen kamilah.lols.haiyo the red cross arh kop our ppl siahs.hehe k la admitt!! i did it too.hehes.hais.fdidn't know cnnt lik dat.condemmned other ccas too.hehes.haiis.sian arh.freakin tired lorhs.ran around qwif sheena.lols.she dam cute siah alil blur blur one.laugh oso v. cute!! ke ai wors!! omg`! she strong minded arh.hehe fun being wif her.hmms then we pull lor.wif peilin at first then duno suddenly peilin go where.she go cook i htink.wah then they cook pizza and garlic bread yums!!! mmm... hehe then sheena treat me her lemon tea.wah she v. good rites??!?!? peilin oso she gimme the lemon tea drink.lols.paiseh arh.hmm then junli wah like v. fierce i scared.lols jane oso.hehes.hai but of cosh gt reason la.then help junli jiale cut wire gauze.hmm is tt the name at all?!?!? ahh heck la.hai wanna blog out summore stuff leis.but like dam personal ler.cnnt sae.i;cve got nth but more sigh .wait till u here teh inner part~ k la i wont type it here... hehes.hmm went hm wif jess and olivia.jess todae guai guai one.now her turn to tired.lols.hmm she v. good de ger.lols.yays clap hands.hehes.tehn we tok tok tok and the staircase at heartland mall opp bustop there.wahseh tok so much.k la then went home.i order chicken rice but papa sae no chick rice so eat hor fun instead.sian rah~! then the elix siao one lor got bird nest to eat.omg!!1 jealous stares siah!! hannah~ k la till here buaiis.

*i feel that nothing's perfect in life.we should give everything our best shot.dun always think to the negative side.sae it will be sunshine even when u feel that its gonna rain.Have hopes.Never give up due to small obstacles.think!! if you face a bigger challenge how are you gonna survive?? everyone of us have potential even if we're small in size.smile evn thou its a bad weather.smile!!hais and i tink i cant smile through all weathers thou hehes... tts jus me i guess.if i'm down.i'm down!!.i'm not able to bring a msile up.hahas.hope to change la.k here's a word of advice.have hopes in things you believe in =) cyaa` guys.mella outta here!!

2005-01-08T07:43:00.000-08:00

-* sigh... why??

hihi~! back here to blog.erm this week of school was ok not that great thou.there's lotsa why i wanna ask.why does she give me that face? why is my math not good? why am i so careless? why does my mum nag? why no one is perfect? why do people exist? why do we have technology when it causes human to be more lazy? why are there mean people in this world? why am i stuck here? why can't i be more sensible? why did the tidal wave happen? why why and why... i'm pissed with people who ignores me.fukin idiots.curse you.i'm talkin yet you pretend not to be listenin.i hate it!! i may smile and u think its okay but the truth is... get a life!!! i do have feelings.. And in case u haven't notice... ding-dong!!! i'm a human being jus like you.you pushed me.thiking i was unaware... well ass you ...we gaive suggestions but your ears were closed.you want people to follow you.you command others thinking you're the head when you're not.you give that stupid face to people who were trying.sometimes you even bully! pushing blames on others.okay i'll be positive and lets hope you were unaware that you're behaving like this.Take a note and reflect on yourself.When you say a hi to me it feels as if you don't wanna say hi at all.well!! if you dun wan then dunt.i dun need a fren like you.And frens dun act this way.why why?!?!?! i feel sad for you.you dunno that the person you're close with actually hates what you're doing to her.you think ur great ... u think ur everything.u dun listen to opinions you listen to yourself.yourself dosen't make the whole world!its people who does...and that means WE and not me.I sensed that you feel uncomfortable when u're with me what's wrong?!?!?! what the hell is wrong?!?! i really wanna know! i feel invisible to you sumtym.. and would you like it if others did that to you?!?! think about it.do a self-reflection.i may have bad points .. some which i already taken notice of and some of which i haven't.Tell me mine ... i really wanna know.i agree with jessebelle frens tell each other their good points plus bad points this is how you build your character by trying to change to the better.Although i know sumtyms its very hard and no one is perfect and its just in ur genes but i'm willing to try, give it a shot will you?? people may have the looks but they rot inside.a slim shapely dolled face lady with big boobs who is loaded may turn out to be a women who cheats people .. or even a psycho path a murderer a hypocrite.a hunchback with a scar plus pimples, bankrupt may be a man who is willing to share his meal he bought with his very last penny even thou he know he's gonna be penniless.a heart of gold.. i'd say.k la i'll stop here.pissed off.i'll continue.cya!!

2005-01-03T02:23:00.000-08:00

Schu re-oPeN dae`__*

hellos =) wah pianks schu re-open todae! was frikkin exciited siahhs~ hehes.hmm met up with elix first saw ruoping and shena halfway thru and yeah junli to0.hehes.i in 3k wahh that class same as last year so many councilor wors then girls rule boys man... yehh again.that shows that guys are stupid-er than gurls? =X whoops.no offence larh..me jokin narhZ.hmm n0w chattin wib elix on msn.i'm soo sad!!! i lost mua phone.no phone for 3 years.cries!!!okies.mua form cher is mishelle chua... yes!! hehes and chi cher ish mdm tung.oh mann~! head of chi and mua chi suks man.how that?! die lers.hmm then e math is ksk! blehs why her of all chers?!?!?!? a. math mrs ruth tan *grins* she okay larhs have stories and all but alil to0 naggy =X hehes with all da rules and all.whoas mua pure physics cher ish TTN!! ohh mann!!~ why?!?! after his class todae.. i concluded.tan teck nam's a boring guy.=/ shh... hehes! i was liek g0nna slp in his class! man! argh! oookae mua new princiPAL sucks big big time! like i said.no sling bag?!?! wat crap! yea?! hello! sling bag oso can put books... duh~ inside our sling bags have no books..why?!?! cos its in the locker!!! oh man.... hais stoppit i dun wan go further.. makes my dam blood boils to the brimm!! ohh before i forget ruoping rebonded her hair!! strait strait lers!!! so nice.*jelous stares* hehes.err wat else?!?!? lemme see... wah todae teh zaidi made us do sumtink v. weird kz.asked the sec3 to make a circle round the hall first time is all da gender and the hall was to small to fit all.wuahhas.then later asked the gurls to make a circle and holed hands.man!! felt so pri schu.=X sry to sae larh... ermm... suks lor then later ask the guys... and the guys won in being faster.blah blah..as a punishment girls had to jump jumpin jacks!! eews.i hate it lorhs! of all jumpin jacks?!?!? ok nvm~ ehh tehn after schu went to c0mpass p0int with cassandra.elix!! hahas... so funny.bought plaster,stationeries,files~ saw many ppl!!! And cp was so cr0wded!!!~ okaees... ate at kfc lorh the shrooms burger wah laos elix shroom burger took so long.urgh.tt aunty!! aiyohs` class was fun todae larhs.noe most of da peeps. Xp kekes.haiis` schu talked bout da tsunami victims.i really feel s0rry for 'em.we even had a min of silence for 'em and i think it was really go0d!~ may all of 'em rest in peace... hais` wat came was so sudden .. everyone was so un-prepared! up to todae ppl are still missing.dead bodies were lying everywhere rotting.shortage of medicine.hais` god help them..i pray ~ kk larhs think i'll rite til here can't wait to ask my bro how was first dae of p1 when he c0me bak~! WOOTS!!kk good luck ppl! chill...cyaa`!!

::- pls pls forgive me... i was stupid... i was wrong... that mistake... s0rRy~*

2004-12-29T04:51:00.000-08:00

SHUTUPP!!!! 29/12/04 ~!

harlow! judgin from the title u might be thinkin that i'm really damn pissed off.hehes... hmm well actually i'm not the least bit pissed in fact kinda good mood.wahahas.see don judge a book by its cover hmm and this case don judge an entry by its title.mwahahas.okay back to mua bloggin.hmm lemme see wads there to blog.thinks thinks.... oh yar!!! eshlyn's back from new zeland.i'm so damn happy.can't wait to see the pictures she took.the awesome view and all.omg!!! she's one lucky gurl.and... also the little something she bought for me.heh-heh.grins.. nahh i ain't that wad do you call hmm k forget it i dunno wad's the word.called her yesterday ... wow she told me lotsa lotsa things!! hehes.well k as for todae... went to work as usual,slog my guts out foldin numerous tons of boxes.okay... i'm lying here ... hehes... i did'nt really work that hard as i said.I did chat and fooled around.hehes.rms yeaps basically fold boxes ... heard jay chou songs for like a few hours and it repeated and reapeated and also the ou de yand song.i was like humming to the tune so often... hey but when u listen to music you'll feel a little relaxed and the work load u have would feel as if it was half.well i felt that way donno bout you guys... haiis work until my shoulder ached.someone throw lemon on my shoulder.hahas.cos in chinese is my jian bang hen suan.suan in other words is sour... hehes and you noe.... omg omg... !!! year 2o05 isnearing.shyt! schu's gonna open in like a few days!!!!!! screams.carmella laks~ hahahahas.. arhhhhhhhh!!!!!! stress again arhs.no more slackin.i've typed this slackin word in mua blog a several times ready i noe.hehes.... wadever larhs.... k i've got nth to sae ler.oh one more thing... what;s the world becumin into tsuaimi waves hits indonesia .. phuket becos of the earthquake.many many ppl died.why?why? is this a sign? a meteor is also suspected to hit indonesia... omg! first was terrorist then now waves? hais war... hehe tokin bout war....we were havin a war todae during work.laughed like shyt man!!! they throw the box here and there...ruoping threw a box at me.. sobsob!! hehes.nvm la .. accident .kk larh till here buaiis!!!!

2004-12-28T05:54:00.000-08:00

merry christmaS ??

hello.sorry for not updating.*squeeze eyes* i'm plopped down in front of my comp just came back from the hospital.i went to visit my ah-mah in hospital she was being admitted into the hospital last week .. if i'm not wrong.feelin preety sian rite now and there's alot of happening lately.christmas,ah-mah in hospital,work.. blahss.... tired i'm tired just too tired.this tired word has been ringin in my brain during the holidaes.well... most of the daes.on ceratin daes this tired word did not appear and those daes are da best!! hehes.ohh well... k lemme start my rantings.k here's the first CVSS new principal sucks!! *cover mouth* woops.but its the truth and onli the truth.see this.
* cvss student are not allowed to carry sling bag
* frame of spects are to be in black or blue color, other color wil not be accepted
* sec 1 and 2s in year 2005 will only have recess once.
ohh man!!! see!! look!! see!!! aint all these crap? she's like too much into our lives.let the students have some SPACE.man our uniform's enough esp for da gurls.we give outsiders impression that we are from like some maid agencies or cleaner agencies or even worst advertisements for tablecloth! oh my goid.after entering cvss i start to hate brown.sukiee color!!hais and now our staircases in school have arrow pasted on da ground and we have to follow the arrows as if we're in pri schu or sumtink.oh my gawdd.there's more.you'll faint when i go on.its complete nonsenese and its too ridiculous if you ask me.sobs.we're schooling in hell.oh well carmella look on da brighter side of life ... i still have my frens.*smiles* hehehs.

ok work.... i calculated i earn like only 200 ++ wad shit man!!! sobs.so little carmella ohh carmella.blame it on my age.fourteen.its rare people wants to hire worker who are age fourteen.they think we're too young.hey!!! but work is really not easy.like ruoping said money is not easy... hehes.we worked ot several times.i did not todae cos went to see ah-mah.haiis.hey suddenly my ind went blank i frogot wad i want to rant about.how?? hahas... work is basically stressful larh.love the lunch break the best and toilet breaks.wahahahas.my hands are covered with cuts and peeled skin.eews u might be thinking.yeah i agree eews.. my beautiful hands! sobbs.oh yeah and the ms lim gave us rotten log cake!! omg its siour sour one lor.eeks.hehe and yeah junli treated pizza.hehe.*grins& thanks junli!!!!! hahas.

oh i remembered christmas! ... tts wad i wanna rant about... hais my best fren is not around during christmas! sobs.esshlynn... arghh.... this christmas was not as fun as the past years.it seems alil weird to me.dunchnoe why too.. maybe its me? maybe not? life's uncertain.... i donno i'm so confussed!!!! school's gonna like reopen next week...!!see NEXT WEEK! hows?!??!?! how am i gonna survive.like i said previosly no more slackin.. but can i do it? yes ! i must try my very best.ok la till here goodbye! *twist* ppl belated merry x'mas and happy new yr!!!

2004-12-16T05:39:00.000-08:00

-n0 words to describe muaa feeliin-

heyhey!! wah laoZ todae's entry would be an entry where my frustrations are all spelt out in big capital letters all my anger my stress my everything mos of my bad feelings lahh.ok first TIRED see this big word over here? yeah.. TIRED highlights .... !!!!! okaee went to work again its like we go there fold boxes they giv us do other things.wah pianks!!! wats more?!?! we are all fraid that we would nt get paid.i even went to the factory at the fifth level with ruoping ... i weigh peanuts and she at first cover the can then later change job to weigh peanuts.wah lao we took all their shits lorh.. sae us slow.u do la we are new lei!!!! hai but work surely mus get scoldin de.if not everyone all v. happy ler. then no job do.yar! then todae is open the dono wad dried fog and check for worms.wah laos!!!! wah sehh think we all wad? younger so ke yi lai qi fu de issit? pulease lorh.... think again lorh.ass la.!okok... erm next ... anotha thingy i v. frustrated is about the shh shh shh thingy.hahahaZ. u mus be over there thinking huh? wad shh shh shh thingy?yeas? aiyah... then tml still need attend NCC campfire wah laoS eat shit larh go die go hell go everywhere larh.... duno whether wan go.so damn tired and stress... then parents also nagging.wah laosZZ can wad lei... how i wish hor can like if want gpo paradise go press the "paradise button.. then enuff vacation ler... press the "normal life" button.HAHA! funNy hor? trying to be lame.uh-nah uh-nah ~ STRESS helpp` so many many many things.then so pooor thing ... ruoping nv go her pri schu frens burfdae party.ruoping arh u shud go lei... primary we 3 can ler.neway the other meetings all gt you.haha.ruoping siao char borh.... haiyo and dono wht the sheena todae so happy the worZ... kekes.headache lahhh.... its my blog and i'm allowed to com[plain think i v. wad owaes type same thing then dun see la i nv call u see... hehehes.sry arh i todae relly so farn.then junli todae tml takin results nehs~ gogogogo...JUNLI ARH GOOD LUCK!!!! all daa best best best! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! pengs arh .. in a blink of an eye the next year is here ler!!!!!!! how?!?!?!?kk la think i end here still gt lots to sae actuallie jus dun wan sae..sae ler more farn arh !!!! =S

2004-12-13T04:38:00.000-08:00

w0rkinn daee__*

i miss someone try to guess who??
i miss someone won't tell you...
i miss sumone and dont you too?
and that sumone is no other but y0u !!!
hehe ... childish?? ohh yeah.. this is carmella when she's bored *grins*

hihi everyone i'm here again!!! miss me? hehes... ehh i went work todae.. the one junli intro de...haha fold box wors.me and ruoping so xing kuu but work is like dat. no pain no gain.. yeah?agree?hehe we have lotsa cut on our hand ruoping even had to put a plaster wahh we todae tok alot alot topics ranges... hehe then went to the cofeeshop behind the temple to hab our lunch then erm... i was later lor todae.. haii my mama lar tot is 7.30 wake up haiyo.. aiyoyo arh... wah laos.hmm folded 500 boxes together wif ruo ping and we earn 25 dollars each.hahaa..we v. funny.then make milo and milk tea.... hehes.so scary teh over there v. quiet arh if we nv tok.hmms... haiya i stil grounded lor so suckie nehs... irritaing infact~ haha don mind me usin sinlish eh?? hmm wonder when jess comin bak shd be todae night but she havent cor me yet~ hmm maebe tml then.hehe.yeah then our proposal.... dono how... opps* this is about me todae.... hahaa... lotsa things on my mind which is kept for my privacy .... okaee neway thats all ayea? schu's coming.haii...kk la hopes for da best in da comin new year gotta really work extraa hard nomore slackiin and fooling arnd.work work serious time.THINK OF GCE *O LEVELS* [highlights] and i can oni go.. aiyoyoyoyo.

i wish i wish i might
on the first star i see tonite
i wish i may
i wish i might
for countless wish
every night... =)

good night ~!!! sleep tite.don let the bed bugs bite.... dream of ME!!!
haha cyaa` guys. -gone-

2004-12-10T04:01:00.000-08:00

proposal thingy__*
ellos.bak again.hmm... todae went bak to sch to collect bks and also to check whether can book ava room or library for the guides thingy.we went to do another proposal.omg.like so wad hor? a battle.kk neway mus jiayou.hmm so we ask in the end cannot book so use canteen and courtyard.later.. went to compass point to check the prices for the decoration.went to popular and also to the op store.i saw so many clothing i want.yeah i can oni use my eyes to see and nt money to buy.kk later then went to junli house... finish up proposal.today junli sick.haii..wah she scold her bro so pro so fierce.aiyoh.haha then jess went to help her wash toilet.ruoping also.weirrrd.okaeee then we type the thing and hear the macarena song.lols.jess started dancing siao one lor.haiyoh.yeah eshlyn goin new zeland...... today!!!!!!!!!!!! for 16 days!!!! omg so cool rites?!?!?! she ges to see real tall and i mean REAL TALL mountains.envy man!!! haiiis..... then liddat lorhh... not much happenin jus that the proposal is the first thing on my mind now? can say so.must get it done and mus be nice nice.hehes.now so boreded.junli ask we all work must see first lorh.haha then erm.. i think liddat the feeling of being grounded sucks.. u don wan to noe.k tts it for today till then chill ya'all ~!!!!!!!!! byeee

2004-12-08T04:50:00.000-08:00

so many happenin ____*
ellos.alot of hting happen ler.major new ish my hp got stolen AGAIN.i v. sway hor? and also v. CARELESS.sighxxx.... i hai my heritage tour group and junli cnnt go visit bomb shelter and helme go retrace my hp put where and wheter can go find it back.sorry guys.*cries* hai even thou say sorry oso no use rite? i noe... neway i did have fun at sentosa we walk the merlion walk then olivia drop her slipper wah lao sho funny siah.we over there dui lian arh malu malu malu.wet until cnnt wet and also took lotsa fotos.junli came along to help.she v. good.hehe then oso brighten our day wif her siao-ness.haiyahhs... oso happie la go sentosa then swam at da beach.palawan beach.so scary ruoping!!!!! omg.luckiee jess help her.man... i tot astill can touch ground but hor actually cannot arh.wah lao i oso struggle.so scary.ahhhhh.tehn say monorail and all the color line xcept for red line.saw lotsa things.and did on our heritage thing.hai then todae went jessebelle de house do heritage thing for gg again.i late lorh kena run 2 rounds.haii my papa oso v. wad he everytime scoldin me think wad la.okok i noe i lost my hp u sae oredi can ler... still mus add add then where i go do wat wat time come home all must care.hai feel like six yr old again.drivin me crazyy..lucki gt mua blog to vent everything arh!!!!!!!haii... so stern then he scold hor wah lao eh like the vicknesh scold.so wad.omg.okok cnnt sae further later some ppl whack me.sorry.hm then actualli todae go schu do de but halfway thru we went jess hse do cos her hse gt usd port.haii then my papa gave me time limit 1 mus go bak.wad the hell.wah lao iw as so angry lorh.i mean hey we've nt done our thing finish yet hw can you liek wan me to leave in da middle of da process if he were my frens do u think they like it?!?!?! it will be like less one manpower to get the job done.haii neway after lunch he allowed me go bak.yay can see jess.ruoping.sheena.again.hehe happy ler.budden we all like duno do wad.hehe we all so blur de.like stuck stuck do dono wad.until finalee jess make the brocher.the outline then started.haii..... now its like 8pm ruoping.olivia.sheena all still at jess she doin and i am at home cos of my dad AGAIn.ass.i wish every s'poreans were all so honest.an giv everything they found bak to their rightful owner.wishful thinking.hai see la they still there sloggin their guts out tryinto finish the tupind ***** brocher.kaobei la.idiotic neh....!!!!!!!!!!!!! so fan de.sorry cnnt help u all.i feel so so so guiltry.ahhh.i scared i the "party" thing oso cannt do leii!!!! ahh i wan i wan.i cant stand stayin at home.kk la blog till here.mwacks.carmella is so sway.i hope my luck can cange for da better yea? winkx!

2004-12-03T21:07:00.000-08:00

a twiggie dayy`__*

hihi (= lols.hmm i'm gonna talk bout yesterday cos nth much gonna happen todae.sighh.another bored to death day for me carmella teigh.ok~ haha yesterday went to guides meetin was late omg.SORRY! well got the scoldiin from liwei first.hmms dunch lie guides gettin scoldin but we deserve it.nvm lets try harder next time round... be a leader.*smiles* okok so then we talk bout christmas party.bahaha.*shh* hmm liwei criticised the proposal jiahwei and karen made.hmm should i use this words criticise? sorry i have poor standard of english.ok then we talked about BGR.heh-heh found out some JUICY stuff.woots.lols.okok i'll shutup later kena whacked arh.okaee~ hmm ytd oso got np and ncc and ohya BAND.haii but me no saw qiu lei oni saw baohui.lols.hmm np i nv see shuchen.okok so neway... peilin halfway go home.sadd.hehe then.. hmm liwei told us dono wat ncc have the rank thingy oso dono wad is it de..lols.me v. blur.okok so ... we at guides den chat chat chat chat until no voice lols.no la not tt exaggerating.*Winkx* later... ruoping.me.sheena went to jess house.she tt dae nt feelin well.hey ger cheer up.get well soon.haii she now in m'sia siah.lucky gurl.shopping trip.hmm oh ya!!! tml's camp again and i've not packed bag.typical me la.so neway went to jess hosue pick TWIGS!!! man.saw many eeeeky bug okay.esp the catterpillar.eewwws.and wats more is in grey.we picked more cos got not enuff suckiee eh? nvm wei le guides wo men xi sheng zi ji.lols.it means we sacrifice ourselves just to pick twigs.went thru awful smell.and maybe even pick twigs which dogs have unrined on.but don worry i washed my hands.*grins* haha~ hmm put others before urself tts a leader lols.we put twigs b4 ourselves.man!!! disgusting.i was so filthy and em and ruoping wsa itching everywhere.arghh~ haiis.lols.so funni.neway we manage to pick suffiecient even got extra.whoa.so proud of ourselves.lols.yay now karen and jiahwei got ler.hehe can share la both of u.sry of nt enuff cos we cannt find nemore.hehes.eh-hem oh ya and we've not done our heritage tour thingy.k mus call ruoping or sheena and ask.gonna do at sentosa yeah?!?! lols.okok~ so happy.guides so fuN.well at times.*shhh* cnnt let cl see ths man.if not my head's gonna be rollin.okaee...wat else? hmm yeaps my papa fetched ruoping and nana home.lols.hai call sheena nana la.sry hor.lazie type out.err... then liddat then ate my dinner at yoshinoya.beef bowl rawkss!!!! okok.. so then ya!! jess oso informed my sis i left my watc and wallet at her hse..hai it was so rushy as my dad came so fast and i was like hurryin and forgot bout ma things.hehe sry jess.nid to mah fan her kipp... sorry.haiis.then went home tok to yifang online.hahahaha.she rote testi for me v. NICE but mine's still BETTER.blehhh.lols.k la we are so childish.hmm i ain't a bimbo ok!!!! lols.bibotic? me? NO WAY.angel tts more like it.bwahaha.buay bahh~ k la stop crappin til here.weeeesh i've gotta go pack bagg b4 i forget~...byeee!!!!!

2004-12-02T06:10:00.000-08:00

+.i'm on daa topp of da w0rld___*
hihi!!! i'm blardi happy todae.kaixin wors.hehes.guess why? got a kiss from my crush?saw my idol? bought a million sets of op clothing? won a condo or car? met a millionaire who offered me a million dollars cos i'm cute? wahahhaa.rubbish!!!! none of the above!k lemme tell you bout miss teigh day.tt means me la.frankly i dunno why i'm feelin at da top of da world rite now?!?!?! issit cos christmas comin?! ahhh i dono.but i'm happy.hehes.ok lemme update first.. TAUFIK won last nitee.yay!!!!! mwacks.hehes.taufik gogogo.hehe hai but my mama papa all support sly but he did well at last nite performance too... esp when he did anjing.guess he's better at chinese songs?hehe nvm sly u rock to0.i'm neutral.. hehe dono lar.oko neway i did vote !!!! i voted for taufik and my mama papa all go for sly.and i got the confirmation sms at like 6 am todae.my gosh!!!!there really was a network conjestion eh?!hehes.kk todaee... went ICE SKATIN *screams* with [ppl are confidential] lols.so fun!!!!!! we fell down on purpose and got our butts wet and freeezing cold.wooooz.but it was on 2 time i really really fell.it was so damn freakin fun.peeps hu've not tried ice skatin pls pls pls go try.fun.hehe and for girl if ur lucki and there's shuai ge skatin over there when u fall they might help you up.awwww sweet eh? todae we saw this group of guys they helped a gurl which fell up.man!!wahahaa... quite gd lookin wors.omg.omg.hehes.neway..we skated then asumone dislocated her leg.hehe the sumone cnnt sae.hehe,our butts and hand were all numb!!and our ankles ached like hell.man!!!!! haha...okok so we skated till like round 5 till it closed cool eh?! hehe... k then i bought kueh tutu at the pasar marlam there...then bought sum accessories frm the mrt there the shop.okok...so went bak to kovan there.met my mum and dad...we ate at east coast for dinner..hehes.cool man.i ate duck rice.later took a walk at the beach with sis and bro.so niceeeeeeeee!!! esp. the sea breeze!! so damn nice and we saw many drawings on da sand and they were like so cool.!!! WE even made our own ones.hehes.so funn~!!! so dark leii and we still go to the beach there...saw a couple strollin ..guess it was also kindaf a romantic atmosphere .. great for couples to chill.hehes !! i loveeeee the beach... yay!!!kk and yar!! i've finished putting the christamas tree!!! mum's doin the decor. of da hse for christmas... yay!!! christmas coming.I CANT WAIT !!!!!!! ahhh.... so happy.k la till then chill ya all...happy me signin off.ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha...

2004-11-30T04:21:00.000-08:00

[[ tuesdaee` __*
hellos.hehe wasnot bored todae.went sch for guides meetin todae.hees.actualli junli did call mi go out to jurong there to swim.haii asked my mama she dun allow.sadded.kk wad standard of english i noe.... newae had a preety excitin dae.well we cleaned guides den todae.man.use a cloth a wipe the floor.ohh man.erm... then well discussed bout sumtinkss...and nidd to go bak to sch again fri 11 meet.hehes.hmm junli halfway thru sms mi...then later called mi and she came down.haha we told ghossst stories in da guides den.eeeeeee.scream and scream like madd.haha.guuides rulee man.haii althou there's still a dark side.hehes.jessebelle brought her mp3 man.kewwlz.hurrmm... after discussin... we erm went to compass...i saw ESHLYN!!!!! hehes long tym no see her.i miss you so muchh!!! hehe wah everything on her is branded.rich ass no. 2 lols.okok uhh then chat lorhs... then..saw peilin!!!!asked her join us take neopriint.hmm then later proceed to heartland mall..wif junli.ruoping.sheena.jessebelle.me.haii but in the end peilin cnnt come.hmf.haiks.nvm we still took the foto and took 2 timesss.hehes.so funni.guides roks!!!! yay!!! then go jess hse piick twiigs haii.... for tupiid camp.whoops.k gonna hab anotha camp .. pioneer badge camp.2 dae 1 nitee.hehes.but v. tough i dun wan.sobbs.k la rite till here.me now chillin listenin to radio chatting.hehe kinda busiee.oh ya!!i did not manage to get to watch the las ep. of ren wo aou you jess recorded .. luckie junli.ruoping and sheena lar!!! hmf.and yaya!!! i almos touched a caterpillar todae.eeeews!!! kk cyaa` takkare.!

2004-11-29T21:20:00.000-08:00

::+[[ mondaee bluess __*
hihi.its monday again! yay? dun think so.i slept alot todaee.ALOT.k here...slept at 11 ++ ytd and woke upp at 12.40 ... k then bought breakfast cum lunch for me and siblings.ate mee-pok wif lil chillie.yum!! *grins* haha then watch tvee carto0n basically... later fell asleep on the sofa for like 10 mins... then woke up look around saw sis and bro playin then went into ro0m and proceed to sleep at that time it was like 2pm then i slept slept till 5 sumtink woke up... whoa!! pro eh? k then walk out saw sis and bro wachin tvee ... then went to wash dishes and did alil cleanin up..nag at sis and bro asked them to clean to0.mwahah.ehh they should ok?! instead of slackiin aroun waitin for me to tell 'em wad to do!humph!ehh so later dad called asked us to some down gonna eat dinner together.so i beacame FAST-ME took my towel and clothes rushed into the shower and showered... haha but in the end i was still sloww...dad came and i was not ready.. told my sis and bro to go down first and later i'll be there.k so in the car..we went to visit my ah-mah at my grand-aunt plae [lao-yi] hehees.saw my ah-mah ..she eatin tehy todae vegetarian.*laughs* k them my ah-mah sayng my bro .. hees.then hmm my dad talked to my aunt.blablablaa... k then later my bro was holdiin an orange then we started eatin it.k stayed for like 15 mins then proceed to eat dinner near my uncle place there.ate western food.chicken chop.k la tt's bout todae.now me infront of comp lor chatting listenin to perfect 10.hehes.then emms..i wan go jess hse tml..but..m i dono how to tell my mum...its sure a NONONO .."carmella ..u nid to takkare ur bor and sis.teach him how to read etc etc.." haii parents.k la till then ..chill ya all' muaccks =) *offf*

2004-11-26T05:36:00.000-08:00

+ [[ m.0.v.ii.e.s __*
:: 261104 ::
hehe.yay i'm here updating once again.hihi fellow ppl =) k lets start... wow finalee a day wifout boredom ... ahhh !! hehes.mum finallee allowed ME to go out.hey!! was actuallie meant to celebrate yau's burfdae ... and you can't change the birth dae of a person.once its dat dae means its dat dae.so mum allowed me go =) and yeah i did alil booth lickin too.bwahahs.went to watch moviee todae wif pri sch frens.and like i saidd it was actuallie meant to celebratee sumone b-dae... buut that sumone did not turn up.greaat eh?hehes.annd that sumone is.. yau leong!! hmm... he had to attend to some ncc stuffs.well... happie burffdae to him neway.hiaks.. okok ... these are da ppl hu turned upp` Mee`.peiwen.debbie.daryl-chan.ngee song.kenneth.ehh kenneth c0usinn .. alvin's da name..kk .. so we first met at heartland mall... me met kenneth and daryl while waiitin for peiwen and deb.hehes.err.. then we proceed to yoshinoya there... we ate our lunch and later.. kenneth cousin alvin appeared.his a sec 4 ..err but honestly speakin he don lo0k sec 4,*grins* no offence thou.... hmm looks alil like kenneth.k then debbie started askin us wanna buy christmas stuff frm erm her kor..hanxiang.kk soo.... we were all like uhh ... hehes.k then!! ngee song called ...haii wat a call.. we then waiited for him.for so so so so long ok...and even walk around heartland mall... haiks k lets skip this part.. well finalle meet him on da mrt..k so we proceed to cineleisure where we atch the incredibles.great great great show!!! those hu havent catch it go catch it... and it was like debbie second tym wachin.haha.k we watch the 4pm show and after we bought the tickets we still had like 2 hrs to kill...so we went to take neopriint.... the guys were so hard to persuade to take..but in e end they paiid for it.so sweet.you guys rawks..!!! haha... we even had one which rote the word "fuck" and ohh yaya... this daryl chan arh aiyoh he's not onli sloww..hehes but he even smoke in pubblicc..haii when can u change ur habit? smokin does u harm onli.wake up! kk neway... we took neoprints then later sat dwn and chat peiwen explored alvin's hp.and debbie was like usin hp camera takin our fotos ... k finalee it was goin to four we were all like broke ready... so we when to smuuggle in snacks bought frm "cheers" intoo the theatre..hehe wah lau they stuff it into my bag look so fatt.hmf.so anewae manage to watch the show.nicee,... then after tt we went to walk walk in orchard road while deb go meet her fren... then later wifout deb we proceed to kovan ate dinner there.poor kenneth he so hungry until go retarded siah...lols so funny.nvm la he had an ice-kachang.haii this ngee song oso lots of nonsense we were so broke and peiwen had this ides where ngee song go act like a begger and wait for ppl to drop money...hehe then wwe take the money..*Eviil grins* heh-heh... haii so tts bout my dae... and erm i'm here now... chatting on msn and also listenin to music.hey i did not go out of point rite? sorry for typo errors kinda in a rush... and yeah alvin [anotha alvin] thanks for remindin me to update.wahaa!! k till next time chill ya all =) tata!

2004-11-24T18:40:00.000-08:00

:: 2511o4 :: __*
:: b0red.t0.deathh` :: ~!
hihi ppl.bak here.its been quite some time... yeah i know =) my apoligies [watever the spelling] hmm i'm currently doing NOTHING,plainly ROTTING at home on the verge of explotion.haha i sound so serious but seriously yeah i've g0t nothing to do other than watch tvee.hear radio.go online.nag at sis and bro other than that n0000~!! the hwole thing is like a cycle.watch tvee.hear radio etc etc.b00ring!!! i'm a girl wif adventure, FUN i nid FUN.yeah !!! helpp!!! i'm suffering here ... *sobs* no use crying.k i know! hmm sis got bak her psle results jus yesterdae.she cried!i was shocked .. and over there asked mum.. "huh.normal tech?!?!?!" *choy!!!* but nopes.she passed and even made it to express erm she could choose normal acad or express =) hehes... excuse me! of cos wud choose express rites... but all the schu she planned to go to was all like above her grade.unlucky.why do exams even exist?! ppl would die somedae ... technology whatever crap.in case u have'nt notice the world's suffering fr0m pollution and how did pollution come about its cos of technology! yep! hehes.but u can't really put the blame on technology itself cos technology does provide us comfort.hehes.jus like this coimputer i'm using now.and we humans are also to be blame f0r the pollution on our irresponsible acts of littering etc.haha wow i feel like i'm learnin geog.shutup!shutup! no talkin bout studies.its the hols!!!! hehes.haiiiiiiii~!!!!! i'm boreeddddd..how?!?! any reccomends on how to spend this frikkin boring holidae?!?!?! and note that i can't go out of weekdae c0s i nid to takkare of my bro!!lil pesk!bopreded carmella.k i'm off.till next tym....cyaa`!

2004-11-18T11:06:00.000-08:00

:: 18.11.04 :: __

aloha home::__
hihi peeps.jus came bak frm my camps.nv updated my blog i noe.k updatin ready.hold on.hehes.well basically i went for camp.pula ubin first and sentosa second.well... i tot that pula ubin would be dam tiring and pure torture but honestly speakin i felt tat the camp was overall alrite not much of a torture.we still had 3 jeli cans of water left after the camp.i learnt many thing frm pula ubin camp and the instructors kept implanting the values a leader should posses and also did a debrief almost every other day after certain activities.i also learnt that you could sand the messtin on the sand nearer the sea to get rid of the burnt parts.yeps.many things happen.i'm so proud to be able to walk alone during the nite walk without any problems or watsoever and finally made my way bak to campsite.althou my imagination ran wild during the walk i kept walkin and tellin myself it was all imagination and jus kept walkin.haha we took foto wif the sea on the background after the camp usin jess camera.the instructors did well ... and they really were good leaders.we rode bikes and my butt was aching man.lols.i got a bad bike at first tupid gear and the rental shop was so dam idiotic.the conditions of the bikes were terrible.sigh.anyway... we did not go all the way to chek jawa... i wanted to see the corals and everything but did not manage.nvm.k this is all for sentosa and yeah i did centry oso.lotsa new stuff

sentosa::__
well sentosa camp hmm... was not so organise we kept dragging.first day the tents came in late and lunch too cos the sentosa caterers suddnly called and informed tt they could not cater the food.the instructors then help us bought food.really a big thank-you to 'em.the cleanliness was horrible and many did not took part in the ativities planned.hey! its a camp participate and the camp will sure be much much more fun.hmm i feel that the leaders also were very not planned [me!] yep.everything was so messy.erm yeah tired.it was quite a disaater? lols...but i still had fun cos my team we like gave encouragement to each othe yeah..lols... hehes... we did not have any quarrels or watsoever.haiks i'm quite tired now i shall continue next time k? well tts all for todae..anotha slice of carmella's bitter sweet life.enjoy.... cya!

2004-11-10T06:38:00.000-08:00

+ c0ntinue` __ [10/11/04*]

::afterno0n::
oh yay i'm bak.lols.well i did totally nothing in da afterno0n.i'm lost for mood.well erm basically had a few fone calls frm jess and chatted on da comp wif a few peeps.yeaa...usual stuffs... well watched tvee` did not take notice of wat was i wachin but know it was a carto0n.later.. i feel asleep on da couch again.yep! again.haiks.ytd talk on fone wif eliix.... s0 long leii.hehes.tt tym tok wif baohui oso.aiyoh.hehes.erms..then yarlar i slept basically lorhs.... ZzZzzZzzzZzz~ bwahahs.did a lil hse keeping unfortunately my parents did not appreciate it.hmf.fine fine.
::evening::
well in da evening.went online again.browse thru net.... frenster.blogs.etc~ and chatted wif ruoping and junli... lil things.then...went to watch the 5.30 sh0w on channel 8 .so boredd and no mo0d.haiks there's lots of things on my minnd rite n0w.hmf.then watch watch watch until it was 6.30 ... then bak to comp ... browsee then later at 7 watch channel U jie da huan xi.watch halfway mum called and told us to go down.we're gonna hab dinner outside...
::nitee`::
hmm....well ate at a cofeesh0p near hougang mall.haiks.miss jie da han xi half-part again!!!!!!ARGH!!! anyways... mum broke her promise she said cut hair todae but in e end NOPES.hmf.fine fine.then later bro wanted go arcade so brought him to hougang mall ... played the arcade there.well nt for me and my sis we went walkin arnd the hg mall.lols.went to chameleon.value dolar.mini to0ns.liddat oni.then later bought a few of camp stuff.... came hm arnd... like erm 9 sumtink rushed to the tvee and watch ren wo aou you.miss half a part oso.eek todae episode erm yilin betrayed kaixin.haiks she'll nv change.hopeless.to think kai xin treated her so go0d.!!!! time and time again she betrayed her.eviiil!!!! okk... then after tt 10 jess called me she sae dono whetehr her dad allow her go tml =( relli hope she c0me!!!!! hmf!!!hehes...
::n0w::
on da comp ...updatin blog.duh! hehes and listenin to wang xing ling jocandy cd.... hehes... i lurvee yue guang.nice song.ok chill ya all i'm off... *g0ne*

- treasurinn everyy minitee off myy lifee ]]*

2004-11-09T19:37:00.000-08:00

[10/11/04] WedNesDaee`__ *b0rdifeied~

::m0rnin::
hihi~! k i think i'll be rittin the first part.have n0t relli g0ne thru ma dae yet.hehes.its still mornin.hmm sumtyms u turn and u turn turning and turnin.... you can't stop and when u finally stop everything feels so different.you suddenly feel that you need to depend on urself and its you against the world.you are so alone.as u lo0ked around everything is so unfamilliar faces starring wondering.well tts basically h0w i feel.time flies so fast.two more months and bo0m happie new year.hello 2005 byebye 2o04.every year same thing happens.then all the memories u had in 2o04 would be locked up in a secret compartment in ur brain.once in a while as u lie on ur bed i'm sure u wud go thru th0se sweet and bitter memories u had which never fails to put a smile on ur face.ohh life... there's full of ups and d0wns.tts why life is so precious.treasure every minute and never regret.hehes.okok` erms... hmm woke up pretty earlie todae 9 i suppose.lols.wanted to go to my sis fun-fair but was lazy.tts practically me.then... laze around in bed.on the c0mp then chatted.hehes.junli asked me whetehr wan go escape.lols.the ans was obvious.she had 6 free tickets.arhhh! junli ur da best! bwahahs.so aniwaes... later went to pick my bro up and bought lunch.rice wif things.ok gtg buy my ama fo0d lata~ cya guys~! guides r0ks.

2004-11-09T17:26:00.000-08:00

[9/11/04] * t.u.e.s.d.a.e * __

hihi~!.mella's bak.bwahahas.my life my business rites?! hehes.jk.the f0nt relli to0 small? soorie. anyways...i went to schu for guides and math remedial.lols.i'm gettin to like guides nowadaes.having so much fun.bwahahas.weird me.so anyways math remedial was as usual bored.chatted wif sijia.hehes.they were oso gonna hab chior camp.lols.ms koh is rather strange todae... she scolded cass.hmf.nvm cass ignore.lols.okok.rubbishing again.i went to bought sandals wif jess todae for our camp.dam dam excited like shit siahh.haiks jus dun like HER.dun ask mi hu lar.i dun relli like to bad-mouth.angel-me.pukes.blehhs.hehes.erms got my camping baggie todae oso.wahhahas.laughing my heads off.okok.ermms... qiu bought her bks todae.wow many were out of stock.guys and gers quick arh!hehes.ok liwei brief us bout the sentosa camp againn` oh mann.anotha camp here.so funnn!!!!!! excoited like shit.hehes i thnk the sentosa camp's da best.we're g0nna explore the haunted house and hmm the nite-walks.woohoos.blahahahs.okok.wanted to go jess hse todae but mum dun allow.suckiee.k think i'll end here.nth much todae.=D cya chill~

[[* i'll.be.rite.here.waiting.f0r.youu` __

2004-11-08T06:13:00.000-08:00

[8/11/04] homely.day.lols.=D

M0rnin`__
hihi~! hehes.here again.ok woke up earlie.da f0ne woke me up.i've been recievin lots of fone calls lately and don be so nosey to ask me hus it from.i ben xiao jie over here has no time for this.lols.eeek.jkjk.the f0ne call was frm my mum.bwahahas.she used her hp to call da hse fone which was placed beside me.she's da one hu owaes give us mornin calls to get upp`.hehes.innovative uh?! so anyways...she called the hse and the fone rang it disturb my beautful dream.hmf.ass.then she ask me..hey ur sis no nid go schu.then i sae aiyah no nid lar.lols.when actuallie i dunno whether she nids or not.then later hand up ask my sis she sae yar i nid.then i luk at da tym it was like6.30 sumtink.hehes.whoops.anyways she made it to schu.luckiee her.
Buyin bo0ks`__
lols.i went to buy bks todae wif elix lee.*grInS* lotsa bks were outtaf stock.k my fault k?!?! everything oso blame me.hmf.i chose the date.fine fine.my fault.then i buy full-scap oso call me siao.hmf.*sobs* yeps.bought the social studies bk frm heng thye.lols.he so farni.okok.erms then liddat lor.tupid lots of bks ottaf stock.esp. math.i nid it cos durin hols can read.haiks.sway lar.wahh.the physics and chem txt bks were thick man.realli thick.nt jkin.lols.actuallie i was supposed to watch m0vie wif pri sch fwens after buyin bks...but later esh and me decided nt to go.cos we were like e oni gers.hmf.pei got track.sporty ger.*clapp hands* hehes.yep liddat.
H0me sweet H0me*__
got home.tired agin.tts so me.owaes tired one.yeah.accept it k.its gd to b urself.go original.haii.went online chatted.then went to watch tvee.instead end up fallin asleep in da couch... da fone rang many times distupted my beauty slp.hmf.i wan slp one lor.haiks.nvm lar cnnt blame 'em.hehe jkjk.so anyways my life todae was about it not as fun as ytd.wahhas.boreded nowww.~
nOww~*__
basically feelin listless now.cahttin to jess ok havent reply her yet.whoops.hehes.jus watch ren wo aou you.just now raphael callled me wahlao pretended to be police officer...man he cannt make it lar.lols.so much craps.ok lar sian leii.nth to do one.actuallie hab lotts but lazie me.arghh!!!!! k cya for now.. *fraustrated* chill guys~

actual time : 10.30 nitee`

2004-11-07T17:01:00.000-08:00

-Yesterday! [7/11/04] *Sent0sa*___
hii~! backiess.hehes.i went to sentosa ytd~!!! and i tot it was f0r serious buisness in the end ... i end up playing like a madd w0men.had s0 much fun!!
First thingy*__
I met jess.first.r0und like 11 goin to 12 tt tym at heartland mall mrt.hehes.we went there earlie c0s they changed the time last minite.hmf! s0 anyways... we went to walk about in harb0ur fr0nt mall.lols.we b0ught an ice-cream to share.And...b4 we could even finish it... they called us and told us they were all there.who0ps! hehes`
off t0 sentosa*__
Indeed every0ne was there.lols.they are [ru0ping.sheena.karen.jiahwei.liwei.and th0se insturctors names : serfainn.vicknesh and streff0rd.*d0no hw spell~]hehes.k we to0k a bus to sentosa.. i sat wif jess fo0led around wif ruoping and sheena.play play.lols.then we finalle board bus.yay~! arrived at pelawan beach.it was frikkin h0tt i tell y0u~ we sat under the hut and discussed bout the games we're g0nna have durin the camp [sentosa] *excited me* hehes.it was booring discussin.i'm e game ic for "magic carpet" but duno whether its confirmed.hehes.we were all so quiet and like dare not talk.the instructors and liwei kept tellin us g0 play the playgr0und.c0s there was playgr0und there.but no one moved.lols.we discussed it b0ut like 45 mins.and it was liwei b-dae tt day.
*discussin over~!___
Later we went to walk to find the tupid playground shalyn's tokin bout.could'nt find it but instead f0und a th0se old` and spo0ky abandoned houses.great!! we were like starring at it.then suddenly the instructors all jus walk in.i was like... wtf??!?!? u wan us go in there.haii but we went in... in e end.tupid la.they kept scarin us.then later we walked further upp` the hse there was'nt tt spo0ky just tt the ro0m was messy and there's lots of painting...afetr explorin tt hse.we went further up yep! went to teh bomb shelter k tt was when i felt eerie... me and jess were owaes made to walk BEHIND hmf!!!~ then the insturctors kip sayin... "make sure there's no one behind you" i was sayin shutup shutup~! in my head i dun wan hear.... but at least have experience.k then afetr the bomb shelter.... we went on then.!!! saw this dam big h0use.it was old.spooky.eerie.dipliated.not mantained.H0use.it was white in color.i was like..shit wud they makes us go in there?!?! in the end we went in.there was many many noises.i herad rats on teh second level then we oni explored the first.the air whenever u pass the ro0m owaes felt colder.boo! omg` hehes.i did not noe hw i manage to survive.i'm a c0ward.lols.they were dam adveturous! but i'm realli very happie.i got to get to explore a old abandoned since war h0use~! woohoos~! hehes.
*after haunted hse*___
we went to teh beach after tt ...could not find teh playgr0und`.wasseh girls realli wore bikini siah.who0ps.lols.erm teher was even an ang-moh hu nv wear da top and she "pah" lie down there.omg`we tehn went in 7-11 bought drinks.dam thristy afeytr teh adventure.we chilled.at teh beach they bought frissbee then we played.play the playground.bwahahs.ok.erms tehn we g0t wet in da sea~! woohoos! tt was e best part i was completely wet afetr tt.we pulled liwei to teh water but failed everytime.cos it was her b-day and she needs to get wet!!!hehes.vicknesh helped.lols.so funny.tehn in the end everyone got wet all x-cept teh strafford duno why he stand there.suntan.lols.teh water was so co0ling.really.i kip splashing... wahahas~!! had the geratest tym.i tot went there was for serious buisness.omg` hehes!!! so happie.arghhh! okok.later we went to wash up ...
*after beach*__
washing up ws tough... then we went to eat dinner if i'm not wr0ng yepps` ate at burger ing.bought cheesesticks for me and jess.shared a milo wif ruoping and jess.lols.sheena hates milo.so farni !!! okok.tehn erms we ate ate lorh.afetr tt we explored the dragon trailed.could'nt find it.duno the strafford doin wat.lead us here there.in the end to0k e blue line.fianlly reached teh dragon trail it was so balrdi dark!!! omg` we [ jess and me] once again was behind.hmf.but later serafin said she'll be the back.and later we grab here sae dun ownself lar.then i hold her side and jess hold her other side an dwe walk.itw as frikkin dark.u cant see anithing leii!!realli!!! then we to0k our hanf0nes and shine.co0lman! lols...wonder where i'll be wifout my fone.tehn i hold serafin so tight.lols.tot lots about "things" but i dun care.kept waching teh road and preventing myself frm fallin.we chat as we walk.it was a ok route larhh.but the heart of e forest was teh scariest.later we end the wlak then.... we went back in cos starfforsd and vicknesh saygot the dragon duno wat larh the water thingy.then we wnet back in saw it..then go out.hehes` later vicknesh nid go toilet... thenwe went to underwater world there.i think he oso hurt his fo0t.
toilet break f0r guys`__
Amazing we gt there.and tupid luck.the toilets were lock.vicknesh nidded toilet badly and they'd do anithing for a toilet.guesswat??!? tehy climed in!!and unlock the do0r.wah... c0uld nt imagine.hehes.we off teh lights tehn later straff0rd sae oi on da lights la.wahahas.ok tehn finalle we went back hm.
our way back*__
sat on da bus back to sentosa it was oredi 10 sumtink.all da pl and jess and me to0k the mrt home.the rest to0k cab.rich fellers.yoii.lols.i went to jess she to wait for my mum and dad.hehes.cos it was late.yupp` jess told her mum everything.i saw her new ro0m.hehes.then her mum made horfun for me thansk aunty!!!! so go0d.jess oso good la...made me the chrysanthemum drink.hehes.thanks !! told annabelle bout the experinece we had.omg.so happie todaee`.k finalle dad came and i went back h0me.hmm the comp was on..i wen tot bathe n later signed in.chatted wif ppl.so many peeps man.lols.i so tired but duno suddenly so energetic.chatted wif cass crap so much.then richard... tok cock oso.then erms..carline,yan jing,wanjing,shuchen[asked her bout mathe remedial] hehes.then my comp hanged so restart and went in .lols.yupp` chat chat.till.... like 2 and i did not know until richard sae...wahaha.*blur-me* i was over there tellin my fwens bout my experience.hehes.and told em to read mua blog.hor cass?!?! hehes.everyone started to go offline redy...hmf.my msn then faced prob siao one lor.hmf.in e end said bye....i was oso gettin tired.hehes.k then..went to my ro0m and poof fell onto teh bed and snore...~! yay tts my dae!!!! i realli had fun in sentosa fun fun fun!!!!!!~~~~ guides r0ks~! * hehes.one for all all for one.yay.finalle gt teh experience so adventurous.!!arghs!k i'm done.cya guys chill.takkare.!!!

*siginin off wif a smiley-face =) * hehes` byes!!!!

2004-11-06T02:12:00.000-08:00

+: meEtings ** __

hihi~! back here.=].just came back fr0m my guides meeting.tired me.doNo where to start.Actually i was'nt keen on updatin todae =X am really *yawns* hehes.but hey updated anyway.k first thing.i had math remedial in da m0rnin, was wenyan b-day ytd and tml's liwei and vilasini burffdae` =D Ms koh taught us mensuration todae.mostly b0ut circles.math's sucks t0ns.i sat wif fang today cos she did'nt want to sit wif yongming and umm sijia did not c0me and the sit beside me was free =P.hehes.listenin to perfect 10 now and some idiotic lame guy jus tried to immitate ashlee simsons "pieces of me: i'll give him a 1/10 omg`.LOL.i felt lyke slpinn in ms koh's class.=X.opps.shh.it was'nt a full class todae thouu` s0me peeps did not c0me for ex sijia =[ guess s0me went holiday bah.after that i went for guides meetin.they talked bout pulau ubin camp.damn excited man arghh!!! >< scared ="Xx.hehes.kk" know ="X" back ="D

+ s0mebosy listen please.it used to be so hard living me... **

2004-11-05T07:23:00.000-08:00

+ a.craziee.daee` ~!

hihi~! finalle updated!.omg`!ok..lets start.i had a very crazy day todae.mainly on joey bbq.i got home feelin` realli exhausted.man! Well first of all woke upp pretty early this mornin round 8 sumtinkk`. ok felt listless then.Followed mum and dad plus bro to have breakfast.we ate beeho0n.bo0ring.later, dad dropp off mum to work and then bro to schu and finalle me HoMe.[grins] I ran to da comp first thing when i stepped in da h0use.my ah-mah was in da ro0m chillin.lols.wachin her channel-U.saw elix online cahtted wif her.blahs.after i've installed msn 7.0 i've been facin many tupid unecessary probs.elix oso kipp on nudging me and callin me idiot.hmf! well later i went to meet jessebelle.well i waited at the otha side opp heartlandmall bus-stop and she was on the bus-stop side.lols.it was rainin cats and dogs i tell you!it worst like the second worst day of my life.chat wif me for more details.finaly saw her at the blardi bust-stopp then we waited.. 136 jus left went i got there.=X.yea my fault.k .. then 112 came we were lyk hey 112 cann go joey house so we took da chance and GUESS WAT!!!! the bus went one whole round and yipee` we were back and heartland mall.ass.grr.was so angry.shitty.hmm... then we went to tt blardi bus-st0p again waited for 136 this time.Suddenly joey called she asked us to get a few stuff for e bbq at tt moment 136 appeared we were like DAMN! we went to heartland mall coldstorage to get da stuf and was finally on our way to joey hse.the rain stopped when we recahed and they were all waitin for us at the bbq pit there.it started rainin again and man trouble starts and craziness too.... we girl guide peep were there to start teh fire.xingying was the mao pai huo lols.jkjk.rain was pourin joey was gettin stuf like cardboard and plastic bags.thanks joey!!amy ju-huan and cherie were all like starn.cherie was lauging like a madd gurl.omg`.hehes k the fire was so horrible!!!! dun wanna get to details.hopeless.joey mum in da end helped us all to get the fire started and by tt tym cherie alreday went h0me =( .she did'nt ate anything.haiks.tupid farkin weather =X.i'm sorrie.neway later me and jess swam.the water was damn cold.my mouth was shiverinn` hehes.jess tried to wett xing ying and amy.ju-huan was over there lookin at da comotion.lols.me too.poor xy.we 2 did not hav as much fun.lata we bathe.and after tt we found out tt amy they all went home.haiks`nv got a chance to say bye.sry guys.we helped joey clear lil bit of chicken wing and fishballs.then fianlee my dad came.we rushed.joey brough down the camera and tooka foto of da 3 of us at da gym there.hehe.then my dad send jess hm.and here's todae report~! =D now listenin to perfect 10 think i shall stopp` still got rememdial tml.ms koh BRIGHT idea!!!~ shit-head! k chill guys.cya~!

+ i promise... i'll be there f0r youu` ~! ]]-*

2004-11-02T07:09:00.000-08:00

+ .my net ish back. + [mwackiees.miissu] hehes

hihi~! i'm back~! lols.man its really been a long long tym since i last update =X s0rry larhs.the cass was buggin me so long nv update owaes see the same old thing.updatin liao larh! satisfied.haiks.got my results and all many many things have happened and u can't expect me to list them all.i'd die.and my poor fingers.='( hehes.so anyways i got into e5.dunno whether to jump for joy or to cry? they sae that studying pure sciences is TOUGH.and maths.i scared i'll flunk all.NO~! must think positive =].hehes my new lay-out was jus browsin thru and i love this song so i pick it.okok... u dun wanna hear.went to hougang mall todae wif cass and elix.well... i got there and the rainn got heavy~! i'm so LUCKY ~! ^_<>

-[[* one shud never stop runnin a race ... ~! *grins*

2004-09-18T02:04:00.000-07:00

+*homemaker badge__

[[ she wants to go home ... but nobody's home .. its where she lies .. broken inside .. ]] - avril lavigne [nobody's home] i wann under my skin acril cd !!!! [desperate!]

hihi.ppl sry for the wait .. LoLs~! i'm here updatin ok?!?! hmms lets see so much has happened... i duno where to start?! ok yesterday actually i wanted to update but there's like a problem with jess comp cos i went jess hosue ytd =X so i did not manage to update *sobs*.So anyways... whahaas sumtink happened to elix ... kk i shall not say here but some of you guys know 'ready huhs?! yeas... today i went for guides well we did basically COOKING for the past hours... i'm now afraid of kitchens and dare not step into one.there's so much to clean up after we cooked.Umm my group did hotgdog bun for the main meal,garlic bread for the starters and strawberries dipped into white chocolate for dessert.the big day was finally here... time to test our cookin skill. hehes, so we did teh garlic bread first then the hotdog bread then the strawberry.i love the strawberries the best.mmm but 'the 'chers say its fattenin cos its dipped in chocolate =[ whoas the other group were very creative!!!!!!!! i lurve stephanie kwok group in other words jessebelle's group their decorations were very niceeee!!! Arghs! LoLs~! hehe the opp frm us where we cooked was xing ying group.After the tasting and grading we had to clean up!!! Man that;s the part which made me hate the kitchen.maybe even for life? nah not that exagerrating.So anyways.. i cleaned the sink and jolene + wanjing wiped the tables and the utensils as for winnie she helped washed the dishes.Our group parctically had teamwork .. yea you can say that =] So then... we clean clean and do more clenaing.We had to mop after all the wiping and washing.halfway through the clean-up i heard a "honk" and guess who?! my dad came.i was frantic and rushing liek mad.I think i resembled sumone hu just escaped from the mental hospital?! nah.. i'm so not mental!!! LoLs~! So i rush... then the 'cher came to check out tables .. unfortunately they told us it was not good enuff. *cries hopelessly* [sry cass use your style] Umm so we re-clean, however we did not reach the standard of spick and span.*laughs* me and jocandy oso went ot the guys toilet to wash our hands hey not only us ok?! there's like so many guides hu went in .. so the fact is that we are not perverts ok?! later was me and jess we went there to wash our hands again cos the home econ room was in a state of cleaning up.the girls were like washing,wiping,mopping,scrubbing,rubbing,etc.sometimes how i wish i was not a girl.*who0ps* but hey dun you think being a girl is so damn tiring and troublesome?! okok.. then yar bout the guys washroom hey it was big lorhs!!! so un-fair! twice of ours in the second floor!! really spacious.ok i seem to be getting too "into" this subject of boys washroom, shall end it here .. *grins* Hmm... i called my dad tt i'll need antha half and hour or so but he told me he gave me onli 18 mins and then i need to get my ass down there.Being the goody two shoes it old my 'cher i had to leave early... hey buit tha best part is i get to skipped the cleaning of guides den which will be anotha tiring job.so lucky yeaS?! hehehes... hmm then after guides dad brought us to orchard he re-contract his line or sumtink and can get a handfone which he did not cos he say wait till next week there's better deals. my dad... ok me and my sis oso had to be blame cos we wanted handfone which have camera built in and not onloi colour... =X hais.. then this is my life.till next time ... "ideal career for me? definately not a housewife!" cya!

2004-09-14T02:48:00.000-07:00

+*Scho0l.day__

- things dont always happen the way you want them to ]]*

hihi.its been awhile since i last updated.yeas?my apoligise [watever it is spelled] Hmm...today was my first day of school.Lols.i did not came to school yesterday for the fact tt i was sick... *poor me* Lols.self-pity.I had a bad sore throat and a awful headache yesterday morning.sighs.whoa! panadol really works!! Anyone here having a headache now?! pls pop two tablets of panadol into your mouth and swallow and pls note that you're 13 yrs and above.thank you.[i'm loosing it] hey its really instant headache remover!!! well... it does work for me.So anyways..went to sch today.same old boring lessons teachers .. watever you can find in a school except for the friends.*grins* Started off with literature *yawns* ended the day with mothere tongue *yawns* the whole school thing was practically boring but its not that boring to a certain extent that i got to meet my friends once again.Woohoos! so damn glad to see all of 'em.*squeezes eyes and a big smile* One disadvantage of not coming to sch is really.. you get twice the amount of homework your friends get.Argh!Yeah! we had our "new" history teacher and it was Miss tay as Mrs chua is having a baby girl.Sigh!! Ms tay assigned seats for us.Lucky me i get to sit with wunyen!!!*grins* poor cass had to sit there.her luck was good though.. 'cher made yong ming sit with her but she pleaded and pleaded and finally ci xiang was the one who sat beside her.UNFAIR [as in hey why yong ming nv sit there] !!! hmph! haha.jokin.it was really cassandra and her luck.*grins*[ To cass: too bad you won't have free perfume. *covers mouth* ] lols.whoops.After school went to elix house together with bao hui to do PBL!!why must we even have that subject? it dosen't help us at all.. well at least to me it dosen't! All it does os to suppress us with more work and to think we are tied down with enough work from our other subjects.i find it so damn lame.*screams* It involves on working out the problem,find the root causes,the solution and present the whole thing out.sucks.Some people might be over there reading this entry but don't know what the hell i'm talking about.ok so lets stop this topic.change topic! haha elix house very nice althou dark.whoops.marble floor and she has a marble cofee table.what a nice view she COULD have if there was'nt construction goin on.evil me.mwaha.her dining table is like those king of restaurant type.so cool.and her dad is like so talented everything oso he make one well most of the furniture lahs.So then we sat outside the living room .. me and baohui flipping thru teenage magazine as we waited elix to finish her porridge.Finally when she's done eating... we sat there listening to jay chou songs and doing our stuff [pbl] sigh... then tt is how we pass teh time lohs.ok!clock ticks it was 5pm we finish everything i went exploring round her hse alil and then called my dad to fetch me.*qian qing da xiao jie* yar yar i know! haha..then on my way out .. i don't know how open her door.lols.dumb me.hehehees..kk then reach downstair went in my dad car.he sent me home.i went straight up .. open the door.saw my sis and bro goofing around gave out a little giggle went in the study room on the comp sign in to msn go to blogger and start to blog.poof this is the end of my entry... Lols..i know i'm lame and i just can't help it!!!!! cya guys.chill.till then... let see lahs.ending off with a "i hate my hair!!" [screams] ...

2004-09-11T03:53:00.000-07:00

+*g.u.i.d.e.s___

[[ every minute you're angry, 60 seconds of happiness is being wasted ]]

hihi.*thinks* got up at round 7 sumtink this mornin.i had to attend guides.. *yawns* So anyways... my mum came in my ro0m and shook me alil i was half awake and checked the time "cheys!only 6.50" was what i said to myself so i told my mum to wake me up later round 7.15 cos i slept at like 12 sumtink the night before =X *Sigh* i was wachin one horrer movie on channel i !! kk back to guides thingy... hmm my dad send me to sch and i reached there at 8.00 am sharp.woohoo!!first time.As ps and pl had to come earlier than the rest of the guides to plan the and organise the activity for tt particular day.Really envy the othere they can get like half an hour more of sleep or so and come at 9am instead of 8.Then i went to the locker there.. and into the girl's restroom over there i smsed jocandy and jess ask 'em where are they.Lols i forgot to bring lots og thiny for guides today.Forgot to bring jessebelle requirement of the menu book for her home-econs and the guides song bo0k *who0ps* sorry! hmm ... today activity was special as the ps and pl was in-charge of it.we planned earlier thou.kwee ching suggested tt we played treasure hunt and we ahead with the idea.Well i was in-charge of station 4 togetha with jess.Our station was kinda cruel cos of jessebelle's evil mind.i tell you she's got another worst idea.MAN!wait till you hear it..i shall not mention it here to help here save her face.Aww such a go0d fren i am.*GrInS* the groups tt came to our station had to pick and envelope which contained a guide song and they had to stand on the bench in the canteen [our station was at e canteen] and sing out the song they had pick and they had to sing it LOUD and ENTHU together with actions.They were supposed to entertain me and jess as so to get higher points.So far the best group was stephanie toh's group.hehe my patrol was inside too.[hibiscus and flowerpecker] *proud* lols.so afetr the whole so called rac insteda of treasure hunt the lo0sing team had to be punished judge according to the points they recieve .. well ... the punishment was tt we had to wet 'em. lols. evill us.but it was damn fun.so after we throwed our water bomb at the looser team.[no offence] the whole guides became chaotic.we all started throwing the bombs at one anotha luck me..i nv get really wet! wahahaa.i throwed one at xing ying!! wo0ho00s!!!! so damnn fun.hais but after the game we had to do footdrill.arghs! stand under the hot bright sun.march here march there.the sec 2 and 3 were being tooken charge og liwei and the sec 1s jiahwei =] Finally guides ended .. at 12.45 or-so. After tt me,jess.jocandy,olivia went to cp together ... we first went to basement to buy fo0d *hungry* i bought fried [medium[ nd the guy hu took my order had the pattern of lydia lee.Lols!!! then guess hu jessebelle and jocandy saw at macs?! MONKEY!!! yeas.. lols.. =X poor jocandy.Nvm jo i think he nv saw u.. *grins* hmm yeas so after tt we went to libarary me and jo sneaked in the fries while jess and olivia stay put outside wachin at the lame show tt was being put up.... *who0ps* so yeas..i borrowed 2 books and after tt went to meet my dad ...he told me we were goin out .... and i asked whetehr can fetch olivia back and he agreed.hais cos we need to go out ..i could not go jess house *Sobbbbs* arghs!! nvm...so afetr dropping of olivia.My mama went to e bank and later we had "lunch" at tamp. mall! i bought "the butterfly effect" the movie... and saw many nice tops at 77th street.kk then went back home.Now i'm here.kk till next time.chill ya all.*gone*

2004-09-10T06:04:00.000-07:00

+*Cinderella.story__

[[ - if.only.life.was.like.the.movies. - ]]*
"i'm a chad michael murray die hard fan!!!hees"

hihi.man! my ro0m so many ants.arghs!kk as usual in my room on net listenin to perfect 10.same old me.Woke up at 6.40am today.well actually earlier cos i was sleeping when i suddenly stretch my leg and the muscle pulled and caused a cramp.it lasted for like ok a few sec and i was over there tahan-ing the paiin.*ouch* i almost screamed for my sis and cried but i was not tt weak >_^.So anyways... washed up.changed.and got ready to go to sch and attend math remedial and science *sighs* "Booring" lols.smsed qiulin as i waited for my dad.MAN he was in the toilet for quite a long time.=X.heees.but i was not late.lucky me.kk shutup carmella.Finally i reached sch.Saw my sec 1 guides and kamilah said hi to her and went in with my 2 guides junior.gosh!were they noisy! who0ps.>< jolyn =" my" thou ="]" home ="[">< lols ="X"><>< who0ps ="X">

2004-09-08T05:21:00.000-07:00

+*mixed-up__

[[ tired...tired..tired.. what's the world comin into??! ]]

hihi.sian arhs.ok.start.well gotta go sch tomolo.SIAN!!! 8 am must reach.. =[ poor me cant take my beauty sleep.*winks* kk wadeva carnmella.So anyways...first i ate breakfast at a cofeeshop near my sis tuition cher's house.Laterr' went heartland mall wif eshlyn.We went there to shop for clothes lols.to0 badd' for me..i oni had 20 bucks with me.wat can i buy man?! well i wanted to buy a pink hotter' top it was really co0l ><>< thou ="X" who0ps ="X">don wan do 'ready..wth...! kk then bought wrappin paper wanna make as notice board but did we? no0o... lols.Umms... yeahs friday thingy so troublesome larhs.ngee song cannot make it by 1 and want to push to some otha day eh? but we already settled for friday~ ><.have not done finish the calling.sigh.hmm so ... aiyah not my biz larhs i jus noe i'm gonna watch cinderella story whtehr they like it or not hmph!Lols... let 'em settle the rest mwahahas~! *shakes head* yeahs! i found out something sadd today... martin SMOKE! mann' where's the old martin?*cries* lols..eeks i dun like ppl hu smoke.He said he smoke cos of stress ... *sighs* aww mann... sm0king sucks.co0l? no wayy... so UN-co0l.makes u more lethargic yellowish and messsy...[sums up to disgusting] hais.sad case.daryl oso smoke.. then heard he oso pierce ears martin also but he told me the hole closed up lols... pathetic =X Anyways hope they change.. *prays* kk... Arghs tml still have guides.wat the fark larhs.no rest for me..continuous frm math remedial to sci remedial to guides..*carmella's dying so0n, sumone save her* Lols... wahahas.was talkin to elix on msn jus now .. well she send me some stupid pictures which she draw..news flash: Elix is currently married to jay chou.*carmella pushes elix's head and says DREAM ON* lols sry for violence... and elix ! i'm more artistic than you ok.jus accept the fact larhs.Lols.. mean me =X... *metal girls* lols.hey btw the mrs wong pic is damn nice *claps hand and shouts : well done* [i know u all would be goin like dots...] lols.i've jus lost my image.hu cares!hmm i ate dinner at macs in hougang mall... scratch the card and won 2 free vanilla cones.wah! my bro is a pain in the ass... *dun wanna tok bout it* hmm then went back home... my bro met his "fren" downstairs then they played while my sis and me went up the hse.Finally now.. i'm here plopped down infront of the comp ritting this entry and listenin to the radio.po0f ok the usual thingy larhs... ><>

2004-09-07T06:00:00.000-07:00

+*in.my.room.on.the.net.__

[[ thank you you've made my mind up for me when you started to ignore me can you see a single tear its not gonna happen here ... ]]

hihi.hmm this is my second entry today =] *smiles* well... bored.Anyways elix made a new layout for her blog.nicee yeas?! hmm jerome called me caramel and he said he was'nt referring to me.ok that's so fake! and my name is CARMELLA.read.lols... Sigh just now was talkin to elix on msn... the talk was damn exciting..and then fone rang and my mum told me to get ready we're going out to dinner.wat shit is this?! Lols.. sorry elix ... hmm can always continue. =] We went to one stupid stuffy cofeeshop and have dinner there while my bro played the playground and eat at the same time.pro.what can i say ..we're family of pros.lols =X BHB.eeks.Can't wait for friday to come... >< who0ps ="X" me ="X.awww" clothes ="[">

2004-09-06T21:15:00.000-07:00

+*someday.somewhere.somehow__

[[ if you could feel what i feel you'd be the answer to my prayer ... ]]

hihi.back here again.yeaps.whoa last night slept at 2am ... pro? Lols was playin a game wif cass and e richard see hu slp later... =X childish? i know. but hu cares.I gave up first.cannot tahan tt long.they're both inhuman.lols.jkjk.Hmm listenin to power 98 cos perfect 10 playing all those techno.*headaches* Man! i hate techno.sucks.kk anways guess i'll have to stay home todae.boreded.Mum dose'nt allow me to go eshlyn house again.gees.i actually kinda feel bad continously going her house.Sorry eshlyn.Nvm you'd forgive me.lols.=X Sigh wat should i do today? hmm was thinking of sneaking out after study to heartland mall with my sis and do some serious shopping.hees.But the only problem is our pockets are empty.we're broke.so broooke! why? why? must everything come with a price... Actually i was suppose to shop with eshlyn for clothes.i wanted casual but she needed formal.Lols. =] my sis is so weird she's wearing a shirt ontop her night dress.outta her mind.The weather's so damn hot.excuse me!o0h the fone rang and my sis pick it up and said hello in her sweet gentle voice.EEKS!cassandra, you siao arhs?! ehh i mean my sis cassandra not cassandra koh.aww why must the 2 of you have the same name? Lols.okok its a free country.hey i feel i'm tokin shit.can't blame me.i warned you ... my life is simple.Sigh! i've not done the pineapple jam for guides..how jolyn? we're gonna die lols.there's still this homemakers badge thingy.sigh.Northvista guides are comin to our sch this sat... wahhmy seniros all so kan jiong [rush] lols.. kk larhs i've no idea wat to type.out of brain juice.hmm yi fang re-bonded hair c0s she wanst to win me in flirting? lols... no larhs jokin.haiyah she and deniese calls me a flirt? and for no apparent reason..weirdos.lols they sae they saw me wif a bunch of guys in heartland mall... its true but there were girls to0! ok! i'm no flirt! hmph!Lols... *innocent blinks* kk crappin... blah blah blah elix make new layout go check out her blog!!!~ wooho0s! kk till next tym.chill people! *signin off*

2004-09-06T07:14:00.000-07:00

+*to0.damN.boreD__

[[ " me*and*my*artificial*dreams " ]] ++

yoyoyo...cindy [lols..wang xing ling song titled aini] kk i'll stop my nonsense.hmm wow i really am damn free ... this is my second entry today.Anyways... its currently 10.16pm or so and "friends" the sitcom is on channel 5 now,it's the last episode yeas?.I'm here again ... sitting infront of the c0mp.Radio channeled to perfect 10 and immortal by evanessence is playing now.The usual me...my brother is outside the living ro0m talkin shit to my parents or is he complainin.typical him. lols.Sigh! one week of holiday.bored to death.Ok! i went to eshlyn house today... hmm basically went there to study and do hmk... well at least i did do my hmk ~ i completed ex 15a of my math which should have been done the week before or two weeks before.*grins*hey ppl dun learn fr0m me... SeE! i mean i know its wrong doing this but still i seem not to care.what the hell is wr0ng with me? Sigh! does life's really all about study? grades? scholarship? hello! does'nt all these make life more miserable.i just want to live in paradise.where i do not have to worry.where i am care-free.where people really love,care and share.where terrorist don't exist.where everything is so perfect.its just me and my sweet life of where fairy tales and dreams come true.It would be somewhat like heaven?yea..i know i'm dreamin.Me and my to0pid artificial dreams.Just now in the car with my family on our way to dinner.. my mum mentioned about me failing my math to my dad.Awww..and yeah the lecture from my dad.Although the lecture was kinda irritating =X.. but my dad does make alot of sense.hmm i'm lazy to type out what he told me.lols.there's so much competition in life.whoa i just finish watching mean girls with my sis.The show was fantastic and man the girls were really bitchy and pure sluts... but the show ended with a happy ending.Lols.We must perservere and conquere all odds we meet in our daily life with a positive attitude and a clear mind! yay! kumpateh ppl.Don't let one thing spoil the rest of your day... ok stoppit carmella ..i'm starting to crap.hai! life is so hard to understand so complex.*headaches*.So anyways.. after my math hmk i watched "great expectations" a very very romantic and fabulous amazing awesomely go0d show.Geneath paltrow acted in it.the show was very sweet it was taken from the story "great expectations" by charled dickens. =] yeaps.that's about it for today.Eshlyn burfadae comin. >< blur ="X">

2004-09-05T19:27:00.000-07:00

+*HoliDaY___

[[ e v e r y t i m e ]] ... are you lo0kin ?

hihi!back here.ok!i'm goin to eshlyn house todae!wo0ts.so happy.ehh... hmm my mum bought me a new wallet.i dun quite like it cos of the colour and the design.ok so i practically hate the whole thing.watever carmella! lols...i've not bathe yet.And yar you might be thinking..whoa .. the smell..lols.Hey! but that's my buisness... sigh one whole week of stupid boring holiday!MAN! wat am i gonna do??yeas i've so called plan my holiday.But i'm a person who would never stick to plans... it would always be last minute changes.ok lets see.my plans.monday : to eshlyn house [study] but i wont really study.=] Tuesday: home sweet boring home [c0mp + study],Wednesday : guides thing [homemakers badge],Thurs : remedial ,Friday:remedial,then to movies! yipiee!!! Saturday: guides [northvista] . Sunday: get ready for sch [big sigh!] hahahahaa.listening to perfect 10 now and waiting for my dad.shit i've not packed yet.Guess wat! i left some bks in my locker.silly me! wat am i to do man.nvm relaks carmella thurs can go take and that will leave me one hopeless day of study... =] hmm... my math really suck... i need real help but somehow when i get ready,my butt on the chair,pen in my hand book infront of my face my mind would start to wonder and i'll start to dose off.wat the hell is this?!lols i can't seem to concentrate!!!! awww! whoas.. every part of my body feels damn tired partly cos of the open house.arghs! don talk about it! whew! last night stayed on msn till late at nite..round 12 or so.i was talkin to vinod lols... we were so damn bored.He have no soccer and her internet got cut off,he cant chat and fight wif her .. po0r him.Lols~ evil me!okok .. wat else? well my life is practically nothing larhs as you cans ee.its just plain old boring carmella. lols.6-08 rawks! hees... kk siging off.i'll be back later..i h0pe! i mean back to rite this thingy.. kk till then chill people.takkare.live long and prosper.. ok i'll shut up..

2004-09-05T04:13:00.000-07:00

+*0peN.H0usE___

[[ s0me people want it all but i've got nothing at all... ]] -alicia keys [roks!]

hihi.s0rry for the long tym of no updates.=X.ok begin! hmm this is g0nna be a rather long entry c0s i'm gonna type bout ytd and today happenings.lols.hmm sry for my po0r standard of english.Anyways i had my open house yesterday... my class did a haunted h0use.whew glad it was all over.lesson learnt : never go wif a haunted house idea.lols.lucky for my class we prevailed the whole hauted house thing in the end.woohoos.. 2i rawks!Job well D0ne... Hmm was damn tired jus by the preparation of the haunted h0use... putting up the newspaper,moving the tables and chairs..phews!lols.. then the clearing up was even more exhausting.the open house was fun but i think las year one better.woots! we even get the chance to se our principal get dunked.*grins* co0l mans! lols.heartless me.but it was so damn satisfying.really!hahaas.i was even one of the "ghost" for the haunted house and was being pushed,beaten by lightsticks,kicked as a result.sobx.being a ghost is relly very jia lat [tough] ask cass if u dun believe me...in fact ask all the "ghosts" lols... Sucks.for heaven sake u go to a haunted house to be scared.hmm then me and cass went to experience 2d's haunted hse.whoa they used the ava ro0m.aww it was cold *shiok* and more darker than ours but they lacked sound effects.Anyways i manage to finish my c0upon yipeee!!!!~ hees.afetr the haunted house i still went to take neo print wif jo.actually jess oso but halfway she need to go =[.i reached home half dead... on the verge of fainting.my stomach hurt alot during open house maybe cos i skipped breakfast and lunch.wahh.i manage to skip?! ok tts abt ytd.Well todae hmm nth much stayed home the whole day... SUCKS! blardi bored.use the comp.yar! i got back my results whoa i dropped alot.carmella must jia you!lols..kumpateh! yeahs.then i called eshlyn we talked maybe mon go her hse.yipee then i fri gonna watch cinderella story wif my pri sch frens.gonna miss 'em.hmm feel so bad pang seh cass they all.... sorrry.but i mus really go watch wif 'em.=[.ok i'll rite till here. cya! takkare.sweet dreams.muacks.

2004-08-31T08:51:00.000-07:00

__+C.H.A.N.G.E.S*

[[Don't waste your time on me you're already a voice inside my head but i miss you...]]

hihi.finally here to update.lol.sorry.umm ok... today was an okay,so-so day for me.we went to sch wearing our house t-shirt.It's damn blinding just seeing everyone wearing different colours...what's more? the colors are bright.eeews.well we celebrated teacher's day.we did aces day in the mornin went to walk one round in the sengkang neighbourho0d.lame.then,back to class and it was science period for my class.bo0oring.later,it was recess then history then the clebration.MAN! it was damn chaotic the councillors were like so fed-up.the zirong haiyohs.no comments.We miss quite a few performance.sukx.the sch bully lower sec.*protest* hehes.And wat...before that they even made us sit in the parade square under the sun *torture* me and cass over there open umbrella.we heck care.lols.hehehes.sch enede arnd 3 lorhs!hey they told us 1.30.see! liars.cheaters.anyways after sch iw ent back to my primary sch.i so happy.see all my frens there.wah some guys become more handsome.lols.and some gals become dam chio.its true!well i went with jess back to rosyth.hmm there i met my old fren *miss em* well... lemme recall hu came [debbie.pei wen.me.lydia.eshlyn.daryl chan.ngee song.yu quan.yau leong.terrence,clarence.wei jin.kenneth] this is all.then the guys went to spray sumthing into pei wen and my hair.oh my g0d!we chase em round the whole IBC so malu!!!! we're like mad women.lols... yeah i was jus glad to see em.miss em so much.well some change well other the same lahs.lols... ><>

2004-08-26T04:32:00.000-07:00

:X"-o.R.a.L-+*__

hihi back againn... hees.todae thurs.Umms.Have sci test wors sure die larhs.then we also have test for math next.die again.haii.i'm hopeless! Then orall.Man! another one bite the dust.die again.haii.. such a failure sobbx =[ damn sad.hey ppl i made elix blog lols must go see her blog .. >< whoops ="X">

2004-08-25T02:32:00.000-07:00

x-*Cherish.every.single.minute__''

hihi! lets start.well just came back from swimming.hmm things at home seems chaotic... >< me ="["><>

:x:"ConfesSionx*usher-____' [[there's always tears behind every smile]]

+[[you pushed me into the room.closed the door.walked out.threw the key.leaving me cold and lonely.tears fell slowly turning to icecles.No matter how hard i tried to scream and shout nothing came out.i waited.no one came.inhuman you were.leave.get out.the pain u inflicted is just too much.lies were filled in every part of you.shattering every piece of me.forgiveness is impossible.i'm not a bit sorry.]]+

2004-08-24T01:06:00.000-07:00

____moodless*++ =S.-[[ScReAmS]]<

hihi.welcome back to another slice of my sucking life.lols.hmm i sound so pathetic.okay! i'll stop crapping.Today was just like any other normal days really just that i'm not soo myself .... =Xx *Sighx* ahhhh! Yeah! i woke up late today.My gosh! I woke up at 6.30 am..my mum went banging on the door yelling 6.30 wake up lahs.. i heard 6.30 i starightaway got up.fast.disturbing my sweet dream lols.Then i went over to my sis bed shaking her saying 6.30 6.30 ... hahas she too got up fast and gimme the blur expression then followed by the shocked expression.*laughs*but we manage to wash up,pack up all in 10 min.pro eh?ohh my i'm self-praising.eww.lols.But we did it all in 10 min.serious! i even had no time tying up my hair+filling up my bottle+taking monet from parents...my sis & i were rushing mad..Man! then i was frantically tying up my hair in the car >< .whoa.i'm like sumone hu just escaped from mental hospital... hey cant blame me! =X...i dun wan to be late and my dad still have to fetch my sis to sch and what's more our sch are'nt close at all!!! lols.i did reach sch though.lucky me.i was on time.=] then found out si jia never come =[ .my geog wkbk was with her lucky ms wong never use geog wkbk today.Ahh perfect 10 playing hillary duff and haley duff new song.so nice =Xx okay back to my life.wahas!yeah si jia nv come.feel so lonely.so sad.*grins* okay.. then hais i dunno wat happen lahs... some private stuffs made me really really really upset.can i just live one day without sadness and pure hapiness?? Lols.ok rubbishing.I know! Then.. yeah my oral was postpone 'cher never come. woohoos.but still must face it one day and that'll be tml ><>< size="4">ohh MAN 73 !!! *CHEERS* its like my first time geeting 70 over for my chi test in sec sch... its always 50-65 around this range and sumtyms even below. =[ .Went home with jess and jo.left shereen at the bus stop alone to take bus! eeks i feel so bad.*guilty* i'm sorry. really sorry.okay tts about my life for today.normal?average? i know lols i was bored duh.okay back to my sch work.weighs a ton.sumone rescue me pls.hehes.okay till next tym.chill.cya! takkares.mwacks. ><>

''frustrated- ohh why?!! =S i wanna scream and just let go...*

::* Would.you.look.me.in.the.eye.and.tell.me.that.you're.happy.now*::

2004-08-23T06:34:00.000-07:00

+*M.o.n.d.a.y*+______

hihi! welcome back to another part of carmella's booring life! Lols. well i'm having the monday blues.sigh.dunchnoe why also.=[ hmms.feel bad maybe... cos of sumtink =X anyways... school went perfectly normal and a complete bore to me.the same usual thing, just that we did not have history lesson in mrs chua homeroom, dunno weher she went let ms tay [sighx] take over. How unlucky, me and qiu lin got the place where there isnt any wind .. we were sweating like shit.lols.whoops.ohh mann.then i did not get to eat for recess and lunch my gosh i was starving the whole day and my mood was from best to good to okay to bad.. haii i was down zero during the last lesson but i still manage to smile okays! After sch my mood was back to Good again hahas... it swings. i know! We [qiu.peg.san.reen.me] went to take foto in heartland mall...ohh mann it was chaotic! we sepnd sooo0ooo loong on choosing which machine to take..i was like.. "pls hurry up i cant feel my legs" hahahas.[exaggerated]hais.the foto.of course was no a success.lols.i would not go into details =].well this is my day ... came back home beat.went into msn.chat here chat there... then went out to eat and now i'm back here!yay! -_-''' yeah deb ask me whether wanna go back to pri sch and visit and call the rest.sure i wan.lols i miss em so much!!!! especially eshlyn!*bias* hehe.hey girl i'm MISSING you lols.... watever and pls dun think slant.Have not seen em in a long time. =[ .okay tts it i think i'm done... yeah wanna add tml is chinese oral.my chinese sukx.ppl even say i speak like foreigner.so malu.=X.awww mann.life sukx but then again its somewhat exciting.hehehes.=d kk chill ya all.i'm off.cya!
:: +a girl with a broken smile+ :: +insecure+*+fiction dreamer+

____*Everyone has the same dream.a dream in their heart.Get a chance to make mend with somebody they want.open up ur eyes, we've all been scammed.so lets join in the universal prayer... =] do you notice me at all?Tried so hard to say goodbye*____

2004-08-20T16:07:00.000-07:00

+*.tears.*+

hihi.backie.lols.i feel so lost so miserable inside and i dont know why.Awful... today was not a "good" day for me at all.First there's math test.i'm still so confuse bout certain things in math.my head feels like it's gonna explode seeing line and lines of sum.Who was the idiot who created math?why make it so difficult.hmm i still like certain type of math though.i also don't know why guys find math fun.wierd okay not all guys. =[[ i wanna cry.i know i'll never make it for this test.i need help big time.Anyway it's over.wake up carmella nothing's gonna change.After math was recess.never eat.my stomach was empty but i had no mood to eat.then it was science.i was over there half listening half day-dreaming waiting for someone to sweep me off my feet save me from boredom =Xx.LoLs! [[ kiddin]] please larhs i'm not so lame.=] Next.engilsh! i had to do show and tell!!Blame it on the registering system! Blame it on my luck to be "lucky" no. 1. cos of my stupid name!!hahas.this sucked anyway glad it is over.i was damn nervous jus now! >.< ... wahahas.did not even prepared! it was only till recess i start thinking of wat to say.lols.never learn from me! hmm tts about it.Almost caught it the rain but i was lucky to get to the bus stop on time before it started raining woohoos! haiis.its bad lucks again.i lost my WAITING book!! i've not read it and my newly made bookmark is in it.... =[[ see my life is filled with sadness.... lols.nahs!!not true.i'm normally a happy girl sumtyms though i hide my sadness behind my smiles and it feels awful.hais okie this is all feel so tired lost and miserable now.Dono why oso! haiis life jus sucked! i wish i could stop dreaming and just wake up but no matter how hard i try you will still be there.haunting me.why?! go away but then again please stay stop the pain and heal the wounds. lalalala =] ..... kk till next time.bye!chiao[[chow]]. -=*MeLa*=-___ FrenS aRe FoReVerr.TreAsuRe EveRy mOmEnt!!!

2004-08-16T18:47:00.000-07:00

+ T.r.a.n.s.p.a.r.e.n.t _____ *

hihi! i'm back! okie lets start. Its a stupid monday.i hate mondays they just sucks.Nothing goes right on monday.lols.okay hmm went to sch saw si jia at the locker first thing.then,went to put my bag in the courtyard.Hais and u noe wats! i forgot to bring my home econs stuffs.*malu* lols.Anyways, lent it from si jia. >< sch ="].its" okayys ="]]">

2004-08-15T16:09:00.000-07:00

:+: Another*Sunday :+:

hihi!here to update!okay lets start blogging.lols.Hmm woke up at lemme see 10 something todae.>.< !! Ahhhh!!i'm drownin in homework.why must we have so much homework??! And..one more thing! i hate to do my ART and HOME-ECONS !!! *screams* Basically ... i dun even know wat the hell must i do.Sucks!lols.*sighhx* And i dunno wat topic should i do on for my journal and there's a math test + chinese spelling.Yah!my oral is coming too and its mother tongue.My chinese sukx you know i cant pronounce the words properly one!*cries*! *freaking outt* look! how much i have to suffer... =[ My life is soo miserable.Sumone rescue me.please? lols.my table is in a mess and i am too.hehees wat else is there to rite? *thinks*yeah!there's this .... hu braggs alot and i hate it.[[sorry for vulgalrities =X]] =[ .Is she trying to make me jealous?! If she is?well she failed totally + miserably!Why should i get like jealous over this stupid "matter" oh hers. Oh please i'm not so childish kays.immature!stuck-up!My ears are tired.ur bragging gonna make me deaf sooner or later =X.u wanna brag?! go brag to sumone else let's see hu can stand you.ahh!! haiis "him" "you" this and that.blahhs.pls go get a life!grow up! i'm sorry but i jus cant stand it ahhs!!!going craziie. brag yeah brag... haiis loser!!its all an act.And know what?! Your acting sucks!Be urself.Originality rules!Fame and fortune is not life's all about okay??!you've change!!*sobx*Wahahas.wah feel so much better lers! =]] hmms.eshlyn! so sway arhs?! heheees =Xx the sms thingy.poor girl~* muahahas i'm evill. [''.] Okayy this is all!back to my stupid school work.another bother.why arent we born genius?! lols.kk till next time.muacks.back soon! i guess. >.< *you are my everything.hope you arent pretending.my happy ending...* love?what is it? i know ::troublesome:: !!! ~ *Sighhhh* why oh why!

2004-08-13T22:55:00.000-07:00

+*e.x.h.a.u.s.t.e.d*+ [[miserable.how farr is heaven?]]

hihi.i'm here to rite againn.lols!haiis.today was my 2.4 km run.Sukx.so damn tiring.my muscles are sure too ache tommorow.*prays* And you know wat? i was so blurr... *blush* i could even miss the place where i suppose to take the tag first.haiis everything seemed so blur and faint when i was at the ending... i could not make out wat my frens were trying to tell me.sorry guys! But thanks for your help though. =]].i was about to die when i reach the end =Xx.hahas.*sighx* Anyway i'm so happy to complete the whole thing !! its just satisfying to know that you did try your best and give it all you can =]] it dosent matter whether its good or bad... ><.go ppl go.lols.*Sigh* i miss the chance.i wish i could turn back time.it seem so near but then again it so farr.*Sigh* ahh i'm just living in my own fantasy that would nv come true... ><><.not fun at all sad to say *Who0ps* hope my seniors arent reading.lols.but hey! they've put in alort of effort to guides i salute 'em must be damn tiring and frustrating?hehes =X.heyyah wad else okayy after plannin and all... yeah!! there's one thing i need to grumble about! At guides my 2 junior tortured me.such luck why am i in that patrol.Wats more??! they are my juniors... lols!no respect at all *sigh* wahahas.jkjk.beat until very red.take out umbrella dunno how put back.talk about all those *cough* things.MY GOD!!! hehees and i was over there suffering.no one came to my rescue.lols.anyway i heck cos i was too tired.hehe.And it i went home wif jo.ming hui and pek yun!fun mans.okayy this is all for today! =]] cya.tc.till next time.goodbye!

2004-08-12T23:12:00.000-07:00

*.sorry.*

hihi.i'm so sorry >.<. its been awhile since i last update my blog.i apologise... =Xx lols.okayy lets start! Well, woke up at 6.00 am today but went back to sleep again... -.- till 6.19am then wake up.hehees.hey i was tired! Anyways.its a friday! my bag is usually light on friday cos there's only like 4 lessons.i feel so bad, i'm suppose to wait for jess but i was feeling tired so i decided to go home first.sorry.lols i've said sorry two times... this explains the title.haiis.. its been so long since i last saw eshlyn i was suppose to go out with her on tues to orchard but i was broke and could only go out by 3 pm.*Sighx* once again i'm sorry. =X I was in no mood today at sch and i dunno why.maybe 'cos of the stress or watsoever.So many people has change around me and i wonder if i myself has change.=[ *grins* Yeah today, shereen and peggy was so lame ... they compete with each other who could think of more "cheng yu" chinese phrases.i was like *diaoss* heehees.No one has won yet the game continues tml =] ... wahaas.then we checked on the sunflower haiis.okayy i think this is ll i've g0t to say the rest are private and dun you be too nosy.lols! wait one more thing, JOEY HAPPY BURFDAE!!!! muaackxxx! >.<

2004-07-30T22:47:00.000-07:00

++.*wazZups*.++ --> baddie luckx =[[ ~

heys...!my apoligies [ dunno how ta spell =X ] for not writting a new entry ... i've been rather busy and my c0mp is damn lag nowadaes...sorry! >.<>

2004-06-23T21:52:00.000-07:00

*|hehees.lovely.thursday|*

hellos!guess why i sae that??...well c0sh...happy lahs.yesterday was my burfdae...spend it with jessebelle...hmms okays..we just hang out liddats onis.Then!!!!i finally kn0w how to make the layout lers!!!!!!jessebelle peh!!!wahahas...y0u hors..!kks i'll st0p crapping.anyways..it was a lovely day ytd.kekes.me and jess went to compass point and there we met annabelle.oohs man.i really love their clothes..op one!dam nice!kks.hehes..=]=]!then we borrowed b0oks about how to make webby with "HTML" codes.yeahs!!!wah sho thick siahs the bk!anyways...i went to populuar oso..then jess t0ld me whther i wanted t0 buy the chi bks..they are in stock lers..i said yeahs.but i forgot i got no $$$$ and jess she so g0od lend me XD!!thanks..gurl ya the best!hmms...must make sure i remember t0 gib her back arhs~.kekes >.< she very g0od arhs!then at nite...evelyn called me to0 wish me a happy burfdae...*Touched to tears*wahahas! she together wib eliz.they sh0 g0ods.hais t0 think eve still remem my b-dae and i forgot hers...kk now i knoe..i'll make sure to kip "2 july" kk this date in my mind..^_^ eshlyn oso wished me a heppy burfdae thru the sms...kekes! sho happy to recieve tts..anyways lot of ppl wished me lahs...elix oso post it on msn..c0ol siahs.kk i siao lers.then at nite my mam bought mui a mango cake.**Yumx**!!!!!!!hees.love my family and friends...they make me feel special...love em alls!!!muackx muackx muackx.byes!!!jessebelle...wahahas!

2004-06-21T01:07:00.000-07:00

*A.stayhome.monday*

heys!its monday again ...anotha boring.gotta stay home today cos my amah and sister went to check-up and i need to takkare my bro.his alil sick.Cox there's a new to0th growing in his mouth..hees wachin nickelodean kids choice award 2004 nows.there's avril lavigne!!!!!!ooohkx.kekes.i like her.hmm but then again i feel tat she's like unfrenly nehs.dunchnoes why.maybe cos of her make-up and eberything.anyways her singing rocks!!!!!!!hais sianx.feelin tried and like sick but not really sick.hmms...???need to finish hmk...but i lazy.hais dunnoe whether my mum allows me to go out tml lehs...hais i scared to ask! arrrgh!shit manx i kip on sneezing...help help!!kks anyways burfdae cumin 2 more days...yeahs!!!!!kekes.gtg.gp and watch nickelodean.byes.

2004-06-20T04:39:00.000-07:00

++*cut/hair/day*++

hihi.backiess to ritex!hais.i'm not in a very g0od mo0d today.maybe c0x of my mother's nagging or some other girl reasons.Went to cut hair today.hmm cut short and cut thinner.the weather seem so hot nowadaes.I may be going to jess house to study...but gotta ask parents permission first.Went into frenster and my cousin,pascalene accepted me.it was a big surprise. i tot the person was some other girl and was just trying my luck on adding.the outc0me was a shock.hahas.hmms my burfdae is coming i'm like so excited.yeahs??!hehees.=].its on wednesday.23 june.keep ur eyes peeled to this date.hehes.jokin.today is not much of fun day.boring is the word to describe the day.really sucks.my mum was nagging in the morning cos of the messy ro0m.but hey!we did clean.blame it on her m0od...she's not satisfied with the cleanliness of the ro0m.okay...the ro0m was still alil messy.a few things was misplaced and there was pieces of tuissue paper lying around.we, the children were being naged and scolded.And...0of course we were unhappy about it.hais anyways... this is my day today.rather uninteresting ehs.just like any other family will have on a sundays.hmm watching the 2004 euro.football.hehees.dunchnoes why all of a sudden i think that fo0tball ish quite exciting.hehes used to hate it.things change i suppose.i've changed.hehes!!gtg byes.god bless.peace outx.*_^.

2004-06-18T05:41:00.000-07:00

*pasir.ris.park-fun*

whahahas~.happy happy!!eatin an apple now.Usin one hand to type!xin ku... hmmx veh farns t0daes.i went to tampines mor first to take neo prints with mua fwens... then went pasir ris park cycle.funs funs! j0candy make me and jess laugh l0tx!! whenever jess rings her belle jocandy wud ride veh fast and the bicycle will bec0me unstable.heex! turn here turn there.wah laos. then h0rs we went to play the playground.... i sat on the sliding here sliding there thingy and was stuck...i zhao geng until cannot zhao geng. and dish jessebelle kip laffin no energy to stop mui and my butt still hit her head.wahahas!!!and she went rollin..still sit down there!!!...wahahas. i was laffin to0 so was jocandy who was struggling to help me st0p she oso had no energy but at least better than jess hu was sittin there.aiyah aniwaes had fun.i malu lahs~pai sehx.everyone was lookin at me cox i was stuck there swing here swing there.the jeans material caused it.hmph!!.wahahahas~!!!!! such fantastic tym we had...hais qiu qiu went hm earlier she did n0t want to go cyclin... sad*sad she needed to accompny jia yun.>.< okays~ then hmms jess tot of startin a club c0olx!hahas..funx.then hmm tml hab guides c0red my patrol members it either not at h0me or cannot get thru.hais sianx!!!!then h0ws??!kekes.aniwaes at least informed one... =]sho farnies. and we went in the wrong mrt train todae...malu malu!!!!jocandy leg bang the mrt...closing and openin thingy..XD.XD then hmms.we to0k a bus.81 and rode a veh long journey.sho farnies and on da bus jessebelle kip hittin jocandy c0x she to0 excited lahs.we shared lots of secrets todaes~ wehehehe.s0 nice.s0 funx!!!happy happy!!byes.end!!!

2004-06-16T20:01:00.000-07:00

Message:*let me share a s0ng with you guys.its very meaningful to me.its sung by britney spears.althou i dont really like her.the song's is dam nice.hmm i prefer the origina one not the remix.go and hear. its a great song.kinda sad to0.hehes
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*E.V.E.R.Y.T.I.M.E* [[Britney spears]]

Notice me, take my hand
Why are we strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me

Everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you, baby

I make believe that you are here
It's the only way I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy

And everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you, baby

I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song's my sorry

At night I pray
That soon your face will fade away

And everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you, baby

2004-06-16T19:51:00.001-07:00

*Just.a.hihi*

hellos.ppl!!yoyox.sho boring manx.sate home.sianx like shit.okies aniwaes went to eshlyn house ytd.hab lotsa fun.her younger bro so ke lian hit his thumb.ouch!hmm h0pes he's fine nows.=] here's a kiss!hahas~ kk then we hab BBq oso.thanks aunty.haha start fire.hais at least take half an hour siahx~ truly amazing.cannot blame us mahs.we are young.hahas!kks.great time lahs.eshlyn oso taught me a new word."horny" wahahas~ sho farnies.okie okie...diaos!hmmx.todae nv go anywhere it just the comp.me.h0me.tele.same old thingies againx.i think i'll do mua hmk bahs~ hehes.spent the fwee time.sianx.lahs.guides the falg dae oso cumin up.w0ots i gonna cut hair lehs.c0ol ehs??!!!!!weets wahahahas~.yeahs!..kk sho happie lahs.overjoyed.

2004-06-07T22:13:00.000-07:00

.:.+HoLiDaEs.SuCkX.+.:.

w0otx!read the title... dun you agree with it?! coop up at h0me!spendin the h0lidaes without ppl u l0ve.ok...'_^ not all does that but i'm one of em. Sho damn blardi b0oring stayin at h0me.lookin at four walls and a ceilin+a flo0rx.heezZ.*ExAgErRaTiN Alil~!!!SICKENING!!No money.no fun.hahas~ mua phrase.i've been robbed by my mama and papa they t0ok mua savingx dunchn0es why oso!!*headaches* [pain.pain]heex!hmmx.s0me of my best buds are h0me!!!yipees!eshlyn's back frm camp...wo0ho0x!yi tian's back fr0m bali!!yeahs!hahas~ there's still one more pers0n tho.debbie quek!kekes~ she's still in china.hahas!HmMmx.there's basically nth t0 do!!wad kinda life ish dishx?! So B-o-R-I-N-G!!yeap?!i play s0me board games with my sis but they were practically boring me outx!!Suppose to watch harry potter then go bowling and cycling todaes.But like i said no money.no fun.so.. you noe i did not go!!wad the hell!!my.sch.h0lidaes.sukx!big time!hmmx.never mind need to bear with it.Just gotta tell mua slef : +|BuRfDaE+| round the corner.days away onis.hees!*excited* (smile+smi|e) yeahs!!!mi birthday ish cUmin.sure to hav a mini make it supa mini party wib mua ... MaMa+PapA+SiSta+BrOtHa=fAmIly... =] heex yeaps yeaps.d0ubt i'll have any presents tho.hehes.But i'll be glad if you give me one.kekes!hints! nahs!i/was/just/jokin!! weeEts!yeahs.ok.tts all fer t0daes,hav fun!!! mUuAaCcKkx!! *gd-bye* !!...till next time...i'll end herex! XD

2004-05-31T21:51:00.000-07:00

*^ThE.DaY.Of.NoThInGx.^*

y0oh0os! hey peeps. never realli update mua bloggie rites? i'm vh veh sorry.Due to all th0se time constraint.i'm b0red to death sittin here lo0kin at the c0mp thinking of what g0nna happen next.everyday ish the same.qiu lin ask me whther i wan g0 re-bond hait t0dae buddens c0x mua mama sae she wan save m0ney she dun all0w me!hey! i mean arggh! we already made plans !ok c0ol! breathe . n0thing really happen lahs. so i'll write more junkx.Hais past is past.i sho sad sho much sadness inside of mua. its no use tellin. u wont understand it w0uld be c0des of mine which has many many strokes y0u dun even understand they are aliens t0 you. the key ish with me... oni i can tell y0u what i'm writtin ish just like fairytale except more real ... See even i dun understand what the heck i'm rittin b0uts.! save me help me.... sh0utuing wont do i noe so i'll just keep silent bottle up mi pains leavin all hatred behind me lockin up gates of love and freedom what mine ish not mine now.. tears of sorrows r0lled down tto my pale cheeks.i looked up my reflection showed but it wasnt me at all... i've changed...

2004-05-29T02:16:00.000-07:00

++MiXtUrE Of BiTtErSwEetX++

Yehy0shies.peeps!out there. sorry for such a delay.well i'm n0w rittin so chill kays?well.lets tart!First of all today sucked.it just sucked okay?!c0x i was late for mui captain b0r competiti0nx.it was very very embarassin okies?!arggh!i feel so guilty, feel that i've let my gr0up d0wn.Anyway we played okay.our first opponent was b0wen sec.the match was a wow.hahas we lost terribly.by 5-14!!hais.Anyway i enjoyed playin and h0pe my the others were too.wow!yeaps!i'm so happy for he next match we won by 1-12!aarrghx!.oh well great job y0u guyx.muack muack!g0t back mua results wasnt so g0od.i've dr0pped gotta improve.my class position was 16!arrgh! 16!!Level position was 18... huhxxx~ its the h0liday wo0hoox.muackx !love everyone okay i'm goin mad.well ...

*i'm not a perfect person and y0u can't expect me t0 be one.thigs always start sweet and get bitter t0wards the end.life's like this dont y0u notice?baby is born...how weet ish dat compared to a dying person.well life gotta end someh0w.it would be meaningless to go on and on.We ought to live our life to the fullest everyday.my heart shrink whenever i see people alone ... the feeling of being alone is terrible AND i've g0ne thru that before.honestly speakin i dont like secondary school life!i prefer primary much better... but life goes on. life is a wheel of fortune some of us get the best of it but some just have to live with it...

2004-05-23T06:41:00.000-07:00

+->LonGdAyx<-+

yehy0shx.hey peeps.sorry fer n0t rittin fer quite sumtymx,c0mp g0t prob lahs.Sianx.got lotta thinx to saex.hmm lets start with today.well went out with mua familie t0dae.went to macritchie resv., go there feed fishes and turtles.We also saw 2 squrells sho cutes.wahahas.realli enjoy.then lata we went to the hill t0ps.hahas~ fUn siaHX.G0 alottie places t0 dae.WoWs!Saturdae mui went east c0ast to cycle.great tym mans.in da m0rnin i attend the first aid course.hehes.sh0 farnix.then ncc oso g0tx attend.whoas.the b0is h0rs there veh farnix and cute arhs especially do practical that tym.weis do on the dummy lahs!D0 the cpr tt tym.hees[",]tell y0u h0rs mui fren.jessebelle.Li hai arhs.she can make earrings and handphone thingy by herself siahx.pr0 manx.must g0 buy frm her wahahas.Then on fridae i went to give out flyers to ppl in the neighbourh0od around mui sch.i gr0up wib qiu lin n0rhs~ Veh farnis siahx!wahahas.while givin out h0rs we met a h0useh0ld which have dog then h0rs scareded me siahx.sho scary!!then at the lift there 0so g0t dog and this dog o chain summore!!!Wah sehx.terrified like hell.wahahaaas.*Wh0opx*Aniwaes, we oso met an a-peh h0rs he dun wan take our flyers lehs! sho qi arhs both of us.hahas.yeahs.lucky w take oni 7 levels the guys took 8.sh0 g0od h0rs.hehes~hais had fUn lahs.veh tirin onix.Sianx tml hab bowling.!arrhs i wan ice-skatin lehs.hais aniwae will hav chance de lahs~.muahahas.and yars t0opid mr tang h0rs.i dun wan run cr0ss-country he go and sign me up extra siahx~!!!.arrgh hate hate hate it!!!*AnGRy*kk tts all ler bahs.g0odie niteys.have a g0od dae aheadx!!MuAcKx.MUaCkX.MuAcKs.Off.MuI.Go!

Think-aboutx:
people live only once.live life to its fullest.never say die.run the race.run till the end.you fall but you get up and try to complete.with determnation and perserverance we can have success.learn skills.be street smart.be forgiving.learn to accept.never judgr people just by thier l0oks.what matter m0st ish what inside.h0w g0od-lookin the eprs0n may be she/he may be a witch just tryin to use y0u.be wise.think twice.muackx with this byes.hahas~

2004-05-16T22:13:00.000-07:00

*MiSeRaBlE*

inner hearts*: life's gettin complicated for me these days.wads in my mind?wad am i thinkin?i'm soon gonna just burst.Wanna scream all my anger sadness fear all out and away!i'm goin mad.god please help me!i sound so... there's no words to describe.thinking about y0u.do you know?i guess you dont even notice me.i'm just a speck of dust in your eyes.and i was standin there...at the corner of my eye...was that you?passing me by?.why is it always like that?.i see y0u but you'll never see me.there's no chance this ish all day-dreams.me and my childdishness.i'm sorry but i cant help it.if there's a crack in my heart.would you mend it?or would you just walked away.are you so heartless??!in my heart it only y0u.get ot get l0st.don stay you're not welcomed but then again please stay.just what is it i want?!you?!no yes.arrgh....drowininxX!

outerself*: heys!ppl hahas.just went to joey blog.c0ol blog joey muackx.its nice!sianx.todae lit xam!i did it wrongly! *Shitx* h0ws?! sure die lers.feel tat this year exams wont be tat g0od hais cannot go into the jc i want liaos.hehes~ sianx. life sho miseable.boring.same thing everydae.no excitement.hais sho sleepy nehs.i wan cry.i wan pour all my sadness out cant bottle them anym0re. i duno what to do.duno wads wrong with me.anyways.kk i'll end here byes!

2004-05-15T23:42:00.000-07:00

*-sUndaes-*

hey peeps!!erms just added a tag board in mua blog.feel free to post c0mmentx.be it g0od or badx.i don cares.its for fun aniwaes~.well...>.* hahas.aniwaes i just cancelled my brother the cart0on network webby.wah!he went mad.wh0opx!aiyahs.but veh noisy and irritatin lehs!wows the holidaes are just round the corner.i've planned i wan go outx siahx.hmmx.yeah!g0in to kukup!!sho happies.aiyah oni one daes.happy fer wad?!kekes.yar bout the holidaes.i gonna go out watch lots of movie siahx.shit!i never save money!*Wawawa*cries.i wan watch.shrek 2,harry potter,ConfEsSiOnX Of A TeeNaGe DrAmA QuEenx [rockx+c0olx+funkys] its a must see mans.love the songx sho muchie i tell yas!teenage drama queen! yeah...g0 check it out siahx!kks aniwaes todae mua mama sho g0od make fillipines dessert fer us.yuMx! but too sweetx!!!!urghx!budden in the aftern0on her m0od swing.cox she clean hse mahx~ weehehehes!! kk think tts all wanna go study lit liaos.buais!!

2004-05-15T03:25:00.000-07:00

*heatwaVex*

yoYox!wahahas.h0t siahx.todaezzZz.WeNt to rivervale m0r with muii fwens to study.[shu chen,wen yen.cass,kah yuen,elix,amy]at first wan go rivervale mall to study buddens elix late... but actullai n0t her faultx c0x rivervale mall nowhere to study all sh0 crowdedx sho we go shu chen hse study~ hais i feel sh0 bad.like use her h0use lidatx sumore make her go buy drinkx siahx!hehes...s0rry nehx!bud have fun at her hse lahs.her d0g hyper active siahx.at first bark bark.until sho scry buddens after awhile xi guan liaos!wahas!f0und out sumtink.elix pa gou~ wh0opx!aniwaes...dats about it n0rhs... we go study maths and lit.bud muii never study lit n0rhx~keke oni maths.hais sian siahx!orhs. yar yars.after go h0me frm shu chen hse me elix kah yuen go pasa malam.*nite market* dey go but t-shirtx. the wun yen kip askin ppl which one nicer muahahas... >.< aiyahs tats gers mahs. hmm..?er yar! walkin in de pasa malam h0t siahx!!!canot take itx.den after dey buy clothes jiu go h0me liaos ler.den kah yUen veh g0od n0rhs.she pei me hui jia!THANKS!sho g0odx.elix sho wad siahs wan pei her wok until her bus-st0p den cross 0va head bridge.sho evilx.but we oso follow her nehs.sho kind h0rs???!!!hai wok over the overhead lors then suddenli saw 82 we both run.in the en get up the bus i realise ez-link card go missin.cries!!sho pai sehx make kah yuen canot go hm earli~sry.hais bad luck n0rhs.!suan liaos lahs...kk sh0 h0t stop bloggin liaos byes...!!muackiess!

2004-05-13T23:26:00.000-07:00

.:B0Redx:.

hihi...shitx.my stomach pain nehx.arrgh!!!!hehes.kks.lets start![[arhgx]]Painx!!kk anywayx.hurhms wows on mui way back sumtink happen again.. i witness a couple quarell siahx.fr0m SsS ones.*giggles* kk its not farnix.wah sehx da gurl veh the fierce siahx.sc0ld the Bf sho loudx.then the b0yfren like wan to make her calm d0wn.aiyah they t0kinx in chinese lahs dun really get them n0rhs.mui chinese bad siahx.~haix.wan g0 eshlynx h0use de buddenx she g0in 0ut wibx her sistax.g0 far eats nehs.fun siahx.budens its t0o far.hais troubled lahs.Sho sadx.tired oSox.arghx!i cannot stand it why must sit beside the o.y.m durinx exams!EeKsX.He Shox WaRtx.can0tx take it siahx.arrgh!*sol*[shout out loud] hais.muii science paper quite okie lahs t0daes.. ge0g mcq sho hard.i mean difficultx.my brain crack until g0t bl0od c0me out.wahahas.no lahs jokinx.-_-'' SiAnx!!piangs...g0na make blog fer mui sis.she h0rs.dotx.no comments lata she see *piak* she slap mui then mui face ruin.wh0opx!wahas.why sho h0tx?!gettin h0tter abidaes n0rhs~sianx.sh0 dusty osox.i wan "bao" liaox [explodes].hais canot wait fer the h0lidas.2 excitedx.yah0ox!!HuRrAyX! *Sadx*whys???...no use askin sho many questionx...its just no use...~wads d0nes can0t be und0ne.whats the matter with me?

-->*.i mean n0 harm.it just me.accept or rejectx.there's no choicex.*<--

2004-05-12T23:35:00.000-07:00

*SigHx*

hihi.s0rries to start the entry with a sighx.its just that there's just to mch stress fer muahs.hais.just n0w on mui way backx, i accidentally step on a w0men sh0e i said sorry and she diao me ! wah sehx.ppl here hao xin sae s0rry liaos and summore smile nehs.she give me a black face and keep on turnin back to l0ok at me.piangx.pisSed 0fFx.stae back todae c0x go ask science question.Sianx.exams!i wan pengx liaos.cannot take it! wah sehx.maths paper hard nehx.i duno al0rtx.*SobZz*why?!WHY?!HisTx paper 0sox n0tx g0odx.cox c0ncentrate t0o muchie on maths n0rhs.hai-yohs.why make it two paper one day?don they have brains.cant they understand the stress?can't they think... wa kaox.just n0w type wr0ngly.*qi kekx.*wahahas!aiyahs.muii sh0x tired lehs.exams make me feel veh weak lehs.HElp. [[nvm carmella u need to think about the long holiday after examx...birthday sumore!!]]*shuang manx*kekes.>.< gonna go out with frens siahs.let muii hair d0wn and celebrate like hell....oni after exams lahs!cheyx~ the t0pid O.Y.M sure beat muii in hist liaos l0rs...but heck cares man i oso n0t sho possesive until wan get highest lykex Him.~ka puix~!!sho Hao LiAnX.Bu YaO LiAnX ArHs!maths.i.veh.scared.||you||left||me||standing||here||all||al0nex||no||one||beside||to||share||the||pain||after||you're||gone||why||did||y0u||have||to||go??

2004-05-12T04:07:00.000-07:00

..*ExAmX.SuCkX*...

hihi.those hu dont agree with de statement sukx too!blehs.blehs. shit manx tml ish muii maths paper 1 and i'm g0nna drown seein all th0se maths probx.h0w ta s0lve manx?.if oni i have a brain of a genius siahx. tats the greatest.muii chi surely veh badx. the compre i duno wad it is tokin b0utx.arrghx! maths maths maths...the expansion suckx.factorisation espeacially!!! i hate itx.why do we hav exams. hais my dad think he sho great ask him ques how to do ish like ask fer nth lohs. in the end he will c0r me onslef figure out.wad siahx!hais hais hais. hist paper tml oso..hais sianx arhx.the w0rld ish dull when there's exam cant wait for the h0lidaes.frenx.fun.l0vex!!!wahahas...kk gtg back study.wish u all de best muackx!byes

2004-05-10T04:16:00.000-07:00

*~ScHoOlx DaYx~*

hellos.againx.aisehx siahx.startin of sch todaex.hais exams are just round the corners.*sighx* h0w many m0re days onix manx.Why must we have exams???!SUCKX~oni give the students stress.except th0se genius.wah sehx h0w i wish i have their brains siahx!c0ol manx.n0 neEdstudy!t0opidx M-0-e *0ops!*Anyways...hais todaes ish an okay-okay dae fer me bahs.not really any bad things happen to mua oni datx i g0rtx a silver ink on my cheeck!and wads more? its permanent!wahas suppose to study chinese budDen study study till chap 4 wanna *orh-orh* lers."wh0opx" !hais dinner tym s0onx.hurhms.wows just watch a show... there's dishx bitch hu think she owns the wh0le worlds ~blehs~ she thinks she's wartx siah tok back tok back till lidats aiyah but the mama oso at fault duno how teach the daughter properly siahx!hahas.hais todaes actually cor eshlyn ones lors buDdens she n0t all0wed to talk.SoBx!Anyway h0w i wish i have lots and lots of $$$ wahahas.hais oni then i can have peace siahs... you must be wonderin why i say this.hais there's just too many prob at h0me and too many prob to list out sho i shant list it out.it'll take a day hehes! *you see me smiling day to day but the fact is that i'm not a least bit happy.problems.sufferinx.painx...*y0u'll never kn0ws...EvEn If Y0u SaE YeShX TaTs A LiEx...

2004-05-08T21:57:00.000-07:00

MoThEr'S DaYx!

hello!!once againx.really g0tta thank eshlyn fer gettin me this c0ol layoutx!muackx muack muackx!hahas.parents are now wachin f0otball while i'm suppose to study but ... yah n0es.teenager's life.lols okay tats about enuff crapx.hmm...its stuffy in this r0omx and messy arrghh!!!tomorows mondaes,sch0ol day.anotha one week of misery.ok...sch0ol's not that badx...but then againx!think about the h0mework!teachers!nagging!and the w0rst exams....grr..h0w i wish i could lead a care-free life!well things at home aren't g0od either... sometimes i wonder... why??! why?! i get angry over such little matters...i would blow up!!oh my g0d and sumtyms i just cant stand my mum or dad.i would mumble some nasty words about them and start punching pillows in my r0omx.life at home isn't any better...hais.hmm but..sumtyms i just love themxx...hais weird aren't i!Anyway sis and i bought a cake fer my mama fer happy mama day hahas... and oso bought a present [a cup and a plate] *cutes* heehees.yeahs i forgots! everyone wish you all a happy mother's day.We ought to remember our mother's hard effort of carrying us for 9 months! sufferin ...hahas even though they still scold us but its for our own g0od altho sumtyms i feel that we are the ones correct!lolx.*wh0opx* ok~anyway wish all those g0od mother's out there...a veh happy mum day kays?!hugs and kisses...hahas kk tts all fer mua this entry gotta go back and finish revising...arrgh!chinese. hate that subject!!!!SuCkX.suckx.SUCKX.!!

2004-05-08T04:10:00.000-07:00

~FiRsT TiMes~

Hellos people.my first time here.feel so new.lolx who am i kiddinx?!*sighx* just came back fr0mx heartland mall.tiredx,sianx and i'm havin a major headache.hahas.aren't i amazing??!still typin even though havin a headache.Anyways i'll be writin stories of my everyday life here, h0pe you will enjoy the various entries.i apologise if s0me are rather boring, its either i am very tired/frustrated or i really have nothing to write aboutx!lolx.kks i think i'll do a short intro ok? hmm what about mua? well my full name ish carmella isabelle b teigh fen ying. long name ehs?hehes i knows. well i'm living in singapore a great country! Currently sch0oling in compassvale secondary. I love makin friends and love the time spent with my buddies.they're fun to be with yah noes.i have 1 sister and 1 bro..hahas gettin a lil too far dunch ya think.oks then till next tym byes.thanks for your time!!

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